My patience is heavy on me now.....
By voldrox
@voldrox (7191)
India
April 6, 2011 9:43am CST
My ex always told me that i was very patient. She, on the other hand was very impatient, immature, and being the younger of the two sisters, much pampered. I have always compromised so much for her. I always wished to meet her, talk face to face with her, but she was too scared to meet in the college campus, okay so we used to meet like once or twice in a month, outside the campus. We used to text a lot, and she probably thought that it compensated for meeting each other, but how can that be ? It was okay, i could do this much for her. Remember, she was the one to propose me..
Then something happened recently. She said she can't be with me anymore...?? She said she was waiting for months to leave me..??? How the hell was i supposed to know if she never gave signs ? We didn't see each other much. She has been so unfair with me. :(
Before she said she can't be with me, i had seen something when i opened her e-mail. I was broke after seeing that. It was so hard for me to take it...
Now, after the break up. I wanted to delete her from my facebook account, but just because she is a family friend of mine, i could not do it because there are many mutual friends between us. 
Even after everything she did to me, i still want her to be happy. I don't want to bring her a bad name by letting others know what actually happened. I still wish the best for her. Why am i so good to her even after everything happened ? Why am i such a fool ?? That stupid girl !!
I always control myself when i think about her... I want to get so angry at her... Only to stop myself thinking about her again... But i still carry a lot on my shoulders, keeping my mouth shut... I just wish i was badder... 
Atleast it would not hurt... :-|
That unrest in me.. I just wish it faded away sooner...
Somebody please humour me. :D
Even after everything she did to me, i still want her to be happy. I don't want to bring her a bad name by letting others know what actually happened. I still wish the best for her. Why am i so good to her even after everything happened ? Why am i such a fool ?? That stupid girl !!
I always control myself when i think about her... I want to get so angry at her... Only to stop myself thinking about her again... But i still carry a lot on my shoulders, keeping my mouth shut... I just wish i was badder... Atleast it would not hurt... :-|
That unrest in me.. I just wish it faded away sooner...
Somebody please humour me. :D2 people like this
7 responses
@saphrina (31552)
• South Africa
6 Apr 11
Hello Voldi.
It takes getting use to when someone just used you.
That is what she did actually.
It hurts like hell, but you know what.
You will get over it.
Do like i did.
Delete your fb account and open a new one where no one will know it's you.
Easier that way so those that have hurt you, cannot get to you.
@voldrox (7191)
• India
8 Apr 11
Aw.. You are such a sweetheart, my Jenny... 
:) :) .... How easily you manage to bring a smile on my face... 
... I don't know what happened to mylot yesterday but i wasn't able to post anything here yesterday, anyways it's working today. So nice to see you..... :)
Luv you, luv you, luv you....... Muah, muah...
:) :) .... How easily you manage to bring a smile on my face... ... I don't know what happened to mylot yesterday but i wasn't able to post anything here yesterday, anyways it's working today. So nice to see you..... :)
Luv you, luv you, luv you....... Muah, muah...
@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
7 Apr 11
hi voldrox you are a wuss like me, we do not like to cause scenes and will let people walk on us til we finally have had it. People tend to
]sort of pick on us as we are always bending over backwards trying to'
please the other person and instead they just use us.You are a very
nice person who loved her and she evidently did not appreciate what
she had, I am sorry but I bet you will eventually find that girl
who is just for you, God picked her out so she is out there so
do not give up as she will appear and knock your socks off.Start
being friendly to those girls around who are nice then one day in the
oddest place at the oddest time she will appear. you will know that
she is the one just as she will also know. good luck . she is out there just waiting.
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
8 Apr 11
Hello Hatley :)
I don't know why i was unable to post anything here on mylot yesterday, i was looking forward to reply everyone yesterday itself.
You are right. It's hard to be patient but something makes us keep it to ourselves till the fog disappears. We should be proud we have this quality. :) She is very immature to understand what she has done, and i just want to forgive her if she ever confessed about it. She is very stubborn too. I just wish she knew what she has done to me, i will feel a lot comfortable then. The worst part is when the crime is done and the criminal doesn't see what he has done. I just want to know it is very painful to hurt someone like that, i just wish her to know that and i am going stay in peace. But i am trying to keep that thought away too, because i don't know if she would ever open up to think about what she has done to me.
When this happened, i was trying to make up my mind that God has His plans for me. I think He has someone with a heart of gold for me. :) I am sure she is somewhere out there waiting for me too. Like a happy ending.
I don't know why i was unable to post anything here on mylot yesterday, i was looking forward to reply everyone yesterday itself.
You are right. It's hard to be patient but something makes us keep it to ourselves till the fog disappears. We should be proud we have this quality. :) She is very immature to understand what she has done, and i just want to forgive her if she ever confessed about it. She is very stubborn too. I just wish she knew what she has done to me, i will feel a lot comfortable then. The worst part is when the crime is done and the criminal doesn't see what he has done. I just want to know it is very painful to hurt someone like that, i just wish her to know that and i am going stay in peace. But i am trying to keep that thought away too, because i don't know if she would ever open up to think about what she has done to me.
When this happened, i was trying to make up my mind that God has His plans for me. I think He has someone with a heart of gold for me. :) I am sure she is somewhere out there waiting for me too. Like a happy ending. 
@ckyera (17332)
• Philippines
8 Apr 11
hi voldrox!
hey hey, what happened? I thought you already get over her and moving on?
well anyway, I can't blame you, two years of relationship is not easy to forget especially if you had a great memories with her...but everything is over now, you just have to accept that fact unless you are thinking of winning her back? hehe
Acceptance that the relationship is over should be the first step in moving on, you should put your attention to other things, make yourself busy, have fun, don't let her think that you are miserable without her.I suggest you to go out, make yourself a better person.
If you want to delete her in your FB account, then go on. So what if you have lots of mutual friends, they will not notice it if you delete her.
You are such a gentleman for not saying bad things about her and for keeping your mouth shut on what really happen. That's just a right thing to do and it makes you a real man!
By the way, a friend of mine ask me before this question... "What animal starts with letter X?" Answer: X-Girlfriend/X-Boyfriend ! lol!
(that is if you are bitter!) hehe
(that is if you are bitter!) hehe1 person likes this
@voldrox (7191)
• India
9 Apr 11
Hello ckyera,
Glad to see you here. :)
I guess somewhere in my heart, some part of me still loves her. But i don't want to, not anymore... I don't want her back, ckyera. She never gave me that reassurance, or maybe i didn't understand her well. But she is so inconsiderate for hurting me like that, i can't think of being with her now. I don't want to live with someone who only wants attention and doesn't care much about me. Yes, two years of relationship was long and we had our moments and now i just want to forget them. Guys like me are stupid. 
About facebook, i will see what i can do. Maybe i will delete her someday. Yes, i am having a good time with my friends now. :) I am so free to do anything i want now, i need not tell where i am, what i am doing. It's a relief in a way too. :D
You also have X-creta ! 
ha ha ha..
About facebook, i will see what i can do. Maybe i will delete her someday. Yes, i am having a good time with my friends now. :) I am so free to do anything i want now, i need not tell where i am, what i am doing. It's a relief in a way too. :D
You also have X-creta ! ha ha ha..
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
6 Apr 11
hello voldrox,
Hmnn...what do you think why pregnant women vomits huh?
And...where is your biology subject gone?
Okay here one humor for you:
my daughter posted this in her facebook
reasons why men/guys don't have menstruation:
GUY 1: Buddy,do you have extra sanitary napkin with you,i'm having my period now :p
GUY 2: (calling his office) Sir,i can't report to work today,my period is on and i'm having dysmenorrhea (nyahaha)
GUY 3: (buddies calling for a cricket practice) Guys,please...i can't play,im' having my period and it's so heavy today (hehehe)
GUY 4: (asking a friend to check his pants) does it has stained? (yay :p)
Now,do you realized why men are not having monthly period?...isn't odd or sounds funny hearing those reasons?
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
8 Apr 11
hello again,
At least made u smile 
yes,she did ,i just changed the "baskeball" to cricket ..hehehe
happy weekend....enjoy,have fun and forget problems okay... :)
yes,she did ,i just changed the "baskeball" to cricket ..hehehe
happy weekend....enjoy,have fun and forget problems okay... :)1 person likes this
@surekharathi (14146)
• India
7 Apr 11
Ohhhhhhhh friend trust on her but if she is doing such type of activity again and again then ask her and say tell me what your problem. But really I dont know why the boys are attracted for girls even they are the friends only on facebook or orkut. I think most of the boys joined the college not for the study but only for girls.
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
8 Apr 11
Oh no Surekha, i think you got me wrong. We were in relationship for two years, she was the one to propose me. And we were in relationship for two years. I didn't meet her from facebook or orkut, she is a family friend of mine and i met her personally on the first day she came to college. I was just giving her fundaes about our college and i started liking her from day 1 onwards. Oh i wish she never stepped into my life. 
Oh i wish she never stepped into my life. 
@Madmax73 (280)
• Romania
6 Apr 11
I just learned a new word in english, scold.
Dude, she's an ex, that's why it exists the word "ex".
And second did you really loved her?
And third, you sing at drums, drummers get chicks easily:D
Delete her from your facebook, like family, and other things.
You guys broke up and that is that.
And sixths, YOU SING AT DRUMS :D
Got the point?
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
8 Apr 11
Hello Madmax, :)
Scold ? Hehe..
Ex.. Hmm.. i guess you will get the answer for your question "did i really love her?" because it's still hard for me to let go of her. I want to completely stop from thinking about her. I did love, treasure her so much, i guess she got over my head. 
Everything in excess isn't good, as they say.
Drummers get chicks easily ? I guess they do. :D
For now i just want the chicks to feel attracted towards me, i don't have the strength to handle them for the moment. It's a good thing if they are impressed with my skills though.
Everything in excess isn't good, as they say.
Drummers get chicks easily ? I guess they do. :D
For now i just want the chicks to feel attracted towards me, i don't have the strength to handle them for the moment. It's a good thing if they are impressed with my skills though. 