first love????????

it is hard to say really , I think everyones first love is the hardest to get over, and when you do you feel like you wasted your time, but you know that you had to go through it to know what true love really is. My first love was in Highschool and we truly had amazing feelings for one another, it is very possible that if he did not fear committment or perhaps even fear where things were headed for us, perhaps we would have still been together even into college but he was worried that he would not get where he needed to be. He would talk so crazy with me at times, he wanted me to be the one for him always, even when we were not together, because he still was in love with me, but he wanted his freedom, he wanted to try other things and not feel like he was tied down. So I just said that it was fine, because i let him go so easily he just could not figure out what to do next, he thought I would make it hard on him and therefore make it easy to let me go....but it did not happen that way and so when I just let him go he wanted more from me, we did still stay together a lot it was like we were each other security blankets, but in the end, it did not work, and I am so glad that it did not as I would not have found my true soul mate and I have found that one in my hsuband. I saw my first love about 15 years ago and he was still the same, he looked at me and wanted me to be friends with him, and appears that his life is different than mine but that we still had a lot in common, we both got similar dogs, we both were into certain things and groups...we both were doing well financially, we together would have made a good team but in the end, I did not feel right to be with him, and he did not feel right to be with me...so there yu have it. i have not seen him since reunion and maybe i will see him at next one, perhaps he will have kids I am not sure. maybe I should take a look and see