Infatuation for EX, can this be LOVE?

Philippines
June 3, 2011 1:17am CST
I did write in here that I'm gonna leave facebook. I mean, mylot + yahoo -facebook life. But just today, I'm back at facebook. I mean real back for a reason that you may hate me for. Well, I didn't hang around in facebook lately, I really refrained from hanging out there, unless someone would text me and says I need to check him/her out on his wall. Then recently, I opened my account, and browsed on my profile, a small icon flashed the name of my EX. Waaaaaaaaaaah, I don't know, I am haunted again. I immediately clicked it, and there I go, my hurt was beating fast I don't think it's normal, I am already way too mature to still feel that way. But I did. I still have a girlfriend now (technically) but we're miles apart, and we are on a 40 day no communication agreement. Guys, you could hate me for this, but I can't help opening my EX's profile every now and then. And rebuke me with this. I said "hi" when I saw her online. Good thing she didn't reply, but she accepted my friend request. I unfreinded her previously, and she didn't say a thing, it was over 2 years already, but now, I don't know, the feeling just seems to come again when I saw her, and looked at her face.... Waaaaaaaah, I am so bad. Don't you think? THis is even weird. What am I doing. I am messing up. Any word?
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9 responses
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
I think you still have feelings for her Chuyins. You wouldn't be opening her profile every now and then, if you don't have. At the back of your mind you are still hoping that you two will get back together. Am i right?
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• Philippines
3 Jun 11
You might be right Simplyd. Am I just one of a hypocrite to pretend that I already got over her? I mean, been years already that I haven't thought of her, or even imagined that we could meet. I though I have totally forgotten her, but just today, just that simple? You pretty have a great point in here. I am just bothered, because I still have a girlfriend. Still don't know what to do.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
It's natural to be bothered because you already have a girlfriend. However, it would be more bothering if when you choose to marry your girlfriend and find out that you really still love your ex. It would be unfair to your girlfriend if it becomes that way. Anyway, pray for God to help you decide well.
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• Philippines
3 Jun 11
Ah yes, that's what I want to avoid. Ending up miserable because I made the wrong choice. One of the reasons too why I still haven't decided to marry yet. People in our province are just talking about me, why I still didn't marry when I could already have a job. And well, could pretty much manage to have a family. I am praying for His guidance. Thanks Simplyd.
@itsack (83)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
I've never known a person to be "infatuated" with someone who's already been considered as EX, except, of course, YOU! All I know, one feels infatuated with someone he/she just met or starting to know. I think you're not infatuated with her, you're OBSESSED? Or maybe you really love your EX and you have not yet moved on for 2 years that's why there's something else deep inside your heart that's boggling you every time there's a glimpse of her picture or perhaps even by just reading her name. It's not wrong to say "hi" to your EX, you're just being human and true to yourself. And at least it implies friendship in your part towards her so she won't feel bad, hopefully. Now, one cannot make a good advice out of presumptions or good assumptions. You have not mentioned how you broke up with one another, if there's really a formal one, so I cannot give out the best advice to you. All I can say is that if she's worth fighting for, then go on, it's not only "maybe" that you really love her, it's really "real love" that you are feeling which perhaps surfaced and has become evident in your part for the last 2 years of your break up. Don't feel bad. The fact that she accepted your friend request is perhaps a light of hope which you can "invest" on....maybe as "friends" for the meantime towards becoming "special friends" again to "lovers" someday. But before you do anything else to pursue your EX again, settle first your current girlfriend. Be true to yourself. Are you feeling the same with your current especially during your 40-day no communication agreement? It's only you who could answer this and it's up for you to find out because in the long run, it will be you will be losing a great real love. Have a great day!
• Philippines
4 Jun 11
This is just a mind and eye opener you got here itsack. I may not have written in here a detailed story of what really transpired 2 years earlier and what's going on with my current relationship, but you made a pretty much great advice in here. It somehow stimulates my mind to think over these matters and you've awaken me to the fact that I should use my head too. Such a great response you got here itsack. Thanks a lot.
@itsack (83)
• Philippines
6 Jun 11
OK! Have a great and lovely relationship with everyone.
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
4 Jun 11
hi chuyins looks to me like you have some unfinished business with your ex. I think you should follow it then let it die out if theres nothing there in deference to your girlfriend. but first get this 'ex out of your system or into which ever way this is going to go. right now its not fair to your girlfriend for you to be fantasizing on this ex.
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• Philippines
7 Jun 11
I don't know if it's unfinished business because I am sure there was a proper closure before we parted ways two years ago. I don't know, maybe I was just not so over her yet. LOL.
@eileenleyva (27562)
• Philippines
4 Jun 11
Gosh, you are allowing excitement to get the better of your saner self. Get over it. You are just musing about what had been in your past and what could have been had your relationship flourished. But it did not. Rather than contemplating on these things, search for something new and fresh and beautiful in life. Stop confusing your ex and yourself. It is not healthy.
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• Philippines
7 Jun 11
Wow! What an eye opener you have here Eileen. Thanks. It's a bit a command yeah? LOL. But you are right, I should stop confusing my ex. Thanks.
• Portugal
3 Jun 11
i think you just still have feelings for her. seeing her reminded you of old feelings that you tried to let go. i also have a ex bf but i cant stop myself to just check on him even he switched me for other girl about your ex if she doesnt like you maybe you should just stop yourself to look to her profile. that will just hurt you. i say this bcs im also getting hurt by hoping for him to say sorry and that he loves me. and him not saying this and also not replying to me makes me feel sad and silly you should let your ex go. you have a gf now right? so talk with her. dont be 40 days without communication. find a way to talk to her. i did that before my ex switched me writing him letters everyday but he just couldnt see it bcs i had no money to send him the letters :( i feel sometimes a bit guilty for him to choose someone else but i think that actually i did all for him and he could had call me or something for us to talk. why would it be always me caring the most?
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• Philippines
4 Jun 11
Something happened with me and my girlfriend that made her decide to stay out of the scene for 40 days. Yeah maybe there's some feelings left in me that I haven't got over with, and now that I became friend again with my EX, those feelings creeps out in me and haunts me. I shall refrain from contacting her, and might as well give myself time to ponder about this. And maybe you're right, I should let go of her. thanks sweetloveforever
@mrgpk63 (444)
• United States
3 Jun 11
Just be Friends as You got somebody Already. Long Distance Relationships should be just that. You never Met as that will Cost Money and maybe some Heart Ache in the Future. Keep as You are and You can Look At Her Profile and even Chat. Just know that it is Infatuation as You never Met. So On Line Love I Think it wasn't as a Person can Think their in Love without a Meet.
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• Philippines
3 Jun 11
Hi Mrgpk, I already meet the girl, she's my college sweetheart. We separate ways when I took the decision to have my review in this big city. We broke up then, and well we haven't got any communication link till today when I saw her accepted my friend request on facebook. Long Distance Relationship is just so hard too.
@selece (2357)
• Philippines
4 Jun 11
Hi chuyins. I would agree with what the other people here are saying. Most probably you still have feelings for her--been there, done that and I swear it's not a good idea to nourish those feelings or give in to the temptation of viewing her profile or getting to know what's happening in her life right now. The slightest spark can turn into something deeper. It would be better to avoid her since wouldn't be healthy given your current relationship. You haven't messed up.. but potentially, you could, so given this situation, you do know the right thing to do. Sorry for the unsolicited advice, just that I'm speaking from experience. Hope it helps.
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@aerous (13434)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
Maybe you are in fall in love again, friend. As you love with a second time around is much fulfilling...
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@amyson (3498)
• Philippines
4 Jun 11
well it could mean you still never forget her and maybe you could build another chance to awaken your relationship with her. it is okay to get back to an ex if she is still free and not yet tied with someone else. if she already have someone on her life right now i think it is not right anymore to maintain communication with her and better cut your ties with her. in case she reciprocate the same feeling or curiosity with your life too. their a chance you may reconcile and get back to each other arms again.
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