I can't forget things easily.

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Seriously, I can't. Yesterday I had a huge discussion with my parents to the point of me throwing my cellphone against the wall and breaking it.. I simply couldn't control myself. It's the third object that I break due to my anger issues. And apart from that I screamed really loud at my parents, a thing that I don't like to do, but I can't handle myself and I end up doing it. So today, throught the day I was pissed at everybody. Just because I can't forget things that easily. And my girlfriend didn't help neither. I woke up and she started to discuss with me because of something that a friend of her told her that I did but I didn't and my girlfriend wasn't believing me in spite of me saying otherwise. I got to the point that I had to send proof that I didn't do it and she still doubted me. I deleted her friend from everything that I had her added. Then we kinda settled but I'm still upset about it. My girlfriend seems normal, but I'm not. I simply can't forget things that easily. It's who I am, and I can't control it. I'm at the moment at my girlfriend's house and she seems normal but I'm not, she noticed and asked if something was wrong, I lied and said no. But she knows that something is wrong with me, but I don't want to mention the reason why we discussed again. I won't fake my state of mind, I don't like to fake how I'm feeling so I'll act as I'm feeling. Let's see if tomorrow I wake up better, otherwise I won't have fun and she'll eventually ask again why I am like this and I don't wanna lie again. We'll see. So what's the point of this discussion? None to be honest, it's just me writing to releaf myself. Comment if you want, I can't guarantee you that I'll answer, but I aprecciate your comments and I read them.