Do you or have you ever thought of doing something BAD?

United States
October 16, 2011 1:01am CST
Iv'e been having these bad thoughts that's going through my mind constantly......like harming myself,committing suicide,robbing a bank,a casino,wishing for somebody to drop dead,completely cutting any form of communications from family and friends,and to go to far away place where nobody knows me.....is this normal?I know in my heart that I am not capable or have the courage of doing any of those,well maybe the latter part....w/c is not that bad....having so much free time I guess is not healthy....so has anyone ever had those moments?am I losing my mind?...
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@waflay (2737)
• Nairobi, Kenya
16 Oct 11
Such kind for feelings are there and I face them sometimes when I'm accused of something I have not done. I think its anger that brings such negative thoughts. Good that they never last for long
• United States
16 Oct 11
I just wish that it'll go away but I can't control how my mind function most of the time...
@waflay (2737)
• Nairobi, Kenya
16 Oct 11
I know how strong those feelings are but its cool if you start ignoring them. Its just something in your mind, try to blur them by thinking of good things very often. Have something to occupy your mind when you are sad, doing what you love. It is possible to shut down those feelings, but you will have to work hard to erase them in your mind.
@Bluedoll (16774)
• Canada
23 Oct 11
We all have those thoughts I think, it is like a bad movie. The thing is when we are down we might ask our self, how long do I want to feel this way? That works for me. Sometimes I think crazy things, who hasn't. What I really don't want to do in my heart is hurt someone, not really, regardless how angry I am. I know this because after the anger, I know I am not like that as I want to just enjoy my life and let others have theirs. Yes, I want to just forgive, this includes myself as well. However feelings are real and I do not think it is the right thing to say you can not have them. Feelings are always ours and we own them. Maybe, it is better if we can just forgive, as all that does is really is help our self. Yeah, our troubles might hurt but then they can also help us to be better if we try to let it happen and if we forget about the problems well that makes for relief. I sure do not want to commit a crime because I don't want to get into trouble. If I did though, I think it would be to counter-fit money. Well, in my mind anyway. I could buy people I love things they need, help many in their life, create jobs, give to charity and enjoy life too. Yes, I think I could do a lot of good but I don't think the government would see it that way but as something bad, so better not I guess.
• United States
23 Oct 11
Just found out that I'm not the only crazy one here...just kidding...thanks to all of you who gives positive feedbacks to other members,I haven't had any of those stupid thoughts in a while..
@jugsjugs (12967)
22 Oct 11
The only times that i have had those feelings are when i have been in so much pain, that i have felt like ending it all.I think of all the good things that are in my life, rather than the here and now, or even with children i would have ended it by now.When i feel like that i take the morphine and a sleeping pill and try to sleep if i can get off to sleep.
• United States
22 Oct 11
Thanks to mylot for taking my mind off those bad thoughts,and thanks to all mylotters who share their thoughts and feelings to others.
• Philippines
20 Oct 11
Haha. I'm just like you. I even thought of those things. You're not losing your mind. Sometimes when I feel so desperate I thought of killing myself like drinking poison, jumping on a building and many more. There are also times whenever I get mad to a person I think of something I could do to bring him/her down. Not just even that. I think of doing bad things like cutting his/her hair, clothes and many more. Anyway, I'm not that bad to others and I'm really not. Haha. Its just my thought. I cannot do it. The baddest things I've ever done I guess is when I cut the hair of my ex boyfriend because I'm really mad at him. Haha. Yes, I don't have courage too to do those things. I even thought to hold up someone. Haha. Just for fun but I will never do it. I don't want to put in prison. Because of those things that are running in my mind, I thought to myself if I'm still normal or am I crazy, just like what you've said. Anyway, that's all. :D happy mylotting. :D
@megamatt (14292)
• United States
20 Oct 11
I really have had a couple of negative thoughts in my time. I think that really many of us have thought about doing something bad. When we have not been in the best spirits, our mood have really not been the best. Yet there is nothing wrong with thinking about something. As long as we don't seriously think about following through on their dark thoughts. Only one out of every ten people are going to follow through on something like that. I mean, there have been days where someone has been annoying me to the extent that I'd consider slapping them. I don't do it, but I would consider it. Sometimes worst physical violence is thought about, if they are really doing something. Yet, many of us are going to really have a lot of thoughts like that. It is going to just be happen. It is human to think these things but it is inhumane to actually follow up on more of these things.
• Indonesia
9 Nov 11
Ever once in while, I was very scared and thought about my mom if she was okay. I just moved to a new town after resigning from my first job. I did not find a job at the time and almost rarely communicate with my parents, specially my mother. I was very scared if something bad happened to her and the fact she turned out to be just fine. I really missed my mother and always think about her, but I can not go back so often to visit her due to far distance and it requires a lot of money to travel back to my village or home.
@katie0 (5203)
• Japan
16 Oct 11
No dear I think it's normal to get angry and all. ACTING on it is what will cause pain to you and regret in the future. It's like fantasies, this could be one, you could imagine and deal with this anger, but not actually do it.
@whatrow (792)
• United States
17 Oct 11
I understand those feelings very well. But I have learned that these impulses are only temporary. If I hang on long enough, the impulse passes. So, I try to delay action, saying that if things don't change in 3 days, I will take a certain action. By the time the third day comes, I don't want to do it anymore.
• India
16 Oct 11
Bad should not happen by our thoughts.. we shouldnot think about the bad and we need to more careful with the things we do..
• China
17 Oct 11
Don't worry, it's ok. I believe every one had or have thought of doing something bad.we are human, not god. your worry prove that you have a good heart.