Can't seem to let her go.
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
Philippines
November 9, 2011 4:17am CST
Okay. I have this someone - ex - which is really over, and by that I mean it has been 2 years now. I had a dream about her last week for no reason. And hey, by the way - I thought and know I've moved on. She's just someone who I happened to give my all - that explains the extreme attachment despite the cruel and deadly ending. (Good thing I wasn't suicidal) So, here is the big big NEWS. We are moving, maybe before christmas, probably by the end of the month - and we will be neighbors soon. And by we, I mean her, my greatest heartache. I will see her again - everyday of my boring and tiresome life she will be a part of it. (I mean, mylot added some fun now..) I can't seem to let her go - I mean, I haven't let her go at all. I'm just blinding myself! And that deep inside, its still bloomingly fresh! (Talking about the wound by the way.)
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@pepai123456 (879)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
oHHH M... your so emo... JOKE!
Who knows she might even still like you or wants to be friends with you, just act calm and collected when you become neighbor with her.
goodluck with your new neighbor/ex hehehe =).
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
That's very nice way of putting it. I hope it'll be just that easy. I hope. Oh well, yes, I can be emotional sometimes.
@pepai123456 (879)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
pat...pat...pat... thats okie =)it suites you well naman ehh... hehehe
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
Are we allowed to use foreign language? I don't think so. T_T) It suits me you say? How can you say that? :P
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
It really is hard. But our ending two years ago is beyond cruel. She looked me in the eye and told me "I don't love you anymore.." Can you believe that? I didn't react at all - at first I didn't. Until when days passed, a whole in my chest started growing and growing. And it feels like suffocating me even if I breath harder. This time I'm afraid to give in - and from the looks of it... there wouldn't be another series in our story. I think it all ended there.
@Mashnn (4501)
•
9 Nov 11
I just wonder whether she meant what she said. Sometimes we say things yet we seriously do not mean it. Anyway, it als depend on her, if she really doesn't care about you anymore, you will be able to judge from her action. Time will tell anyway. I just wish you well incase you decide to come back together again.
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
I can tell that she didn't mean it. I know, when we were together back then, its true, nothing is fake. And lately, she's looking for me. *Wink. I don't know why I'm so glad but ... I'am. VERY!
@julianmac (396)
• Malaysia
9 Nov 11
Hi,
I would say that it's good for you to keep an open mind. Prepare yourself for anything that might happen. If you look at the past, she looked straight into your eyes and told you that she didn't love you anymore. That must have hurt you a lot and I'm sure it still does.
Since our history determines our future in one way or another, I would suggest that you'd be real careful when dealing with her. Don't let her hurt you again. When you do become neighbors and get to see her everyday, give her an impression of how well things are going on for you without her in your life.Don't let her take control.Show her who the man is. Well if you guys ever decide to get back together again than I wish both of you all the best. You may never know as love is a funny and unpredictable feeling.
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
Last time, I did everything possible just to make it work, three times - just to save us both from the impending heart breaks. But then, she gave up - she did it, and she's at fault about it. I wouldn't do anything, nothing at all. If she want's us back, I'am the one who needs convincing. And I don't think she can convince me easily.
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
And yes, I totally agree with that. Love is a playful thing. It's very unpredictable.
@bubuth (1815)
• Philippines
10 Nov 11
hmmm..you are still inlove in your ex girlfriend?..why don't you try to ask her if you still be together..If her answer is yes then go..but if her answer is no try to find another that can help you to move on..for me,i cannot move on if i did not find another one..
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
10 Nov 11
It's like I'm still in love or "very" in love with her, although I miss her - yes. I won't ask her if we can still be together though, her family don't like me for her, more like DESPISE me in that case. She answer me already when we broke up, she don't want me, she doesn't love me anymore so, I'll just play it cool and pretend I don't care. ^^v
@boyuancy (1708)
• India
10 Nov 11
Who knows maybe it signifies a fresh start for the both of you. This time please DON'T take an initiative. If she sees you everyday maybe she'll realize that she loved you and may come back.
If she doesn't come back you know the thing:
"If you love something set it free, if it returns it is yours, if it doens't it was never meant to be".
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
10 Nov 11
I could hardly think this is meant for us - as I can only see one picture: this moving thing is a good business opportunity for my family. This time I won't take the initiative, I won't do ANYTHING. I'm not expecting she'll come back, I don't want her too. *Wink. I can manage this, just have to play it cool.
@AJoy2Shop (20)
• United States
10 Nov 11
Moving is an opportunity to know it is totally over. --be kind and friendly; however, don't go out of your way to seek her out. Above all don't get "sucked" into a relationship with her again. Face the fact it didn't work the first time and it is over...in the past...move on. When the move takes place, find people to hang-out with that will be a positive force in your life. Sounds like your dream was simply an attempt to resolve some feelings that haven't been dealt with 'cause of the hurt you experienced. Don't make too much of a dream about her.
@ehleonkyrietales (452)
• Philippines
10 Nov 11
This is so far the best answer I've received. Yes, I want to hear something like this that will encourage me to have "courage" and deal with it head on. Don't worry, I don't have plans getting involved with her in anything intimate and all. Not now, not ever. I'm busy with my life right now and she's way to the thousandth in my priority list. Thanks joy.
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
9 Nov 11
Well,you don't have any choice but to bear the pain of seeing her everyday (possible right?)
You haven't shut your world for her, then,feel the pain (duh)
I hope you can moved on and let yourself free from all the pains.
