Is there Something you are running away from?

I recently moved cross country from where I lived my entire life and every one I knew. In some ways I guess I was running away but I like to think of it more as making a fresh start. I spent 12 years in a relationship with my children's father and even though we broke up several years ago it seems I constantly ran into people who didn't seem to know we were separated I was constantly being referred to as his wife and asked where he was, this tended to be very uncomfortable especially when I was out with my new husband. I would get looks from family and friends as though they had just caught me in an affair or something. It just felt to me as tho my time spent with him had defined my life and no matter how desperately it was a part of my life that I wanted to let go of I just wasn't being allowed to and so I moved with my husband and kids and now life is much more peaceful. I miss my family and friends but I am glad I made the choice to make a new life and given the choice to make over again I would make the same one every time.

Good to know that I am not the only one. I am running away from my craziness, or accepting that I am. I think of instances differently. I judge myself. I have vowed to myself that I will start enjoying my life after I am something as I am nothing right now. So I am running form my life sort of.

Hi Chiyosan, yes, you need to find a way to manage yourself, otherwise you will not find peace anywhere. Moving to a new place is very stressful. Imagine having to find a place to stay, and buy all the necessities that you have taken for granted. I think it is more like a change of mindset that you should be seeking. Nothing really matters in the long run. Even if a kid fails all the examination in school, it does not really matter in the long run. Nobody will want to find out how well or how badly a person did in school fifty years ago. The most important thing is that he survives wherever he goes.

Hi Chiyo, your discussion makes me guilty. I had leave my job, I did not resign properly nor I got terminated. There's just an issue in the office and I am so tired of defending my self and answering their questions. This is a very confidential issue, one of the officer taken away the money of the company which costs $11,000. Those money was the payment for clients and I was the one responsible for the monitoring of the transactions. I kept my documentations but the officer had shredded those receipts so the company would not trace that she received the money. The company is putting pressure on my head to reconcile all the transactions but i don't have any idea where she used the money. The sad thing here is they are looking for somebody to be blamed because they can no longer find the officer. I was the closest to the issues so I was the one to blame. It hurts me a lot to leave my job without proper exit but this time I need to think about my self. I believe I had done nothing wrong and they should look for the officer to explain and not just focused on me.

Hi chiyosan, I've been planning to leave this country and settle overseas because I wanted to run away as far as I can from my siblings and relatives. They are such needle noses and loves to pock it into my business. This has been going on for years so I moved to the city. Now, they are seeking me out again and starts dropping by my place quite often.History is repeating itself when it comes to my life.Just like in your case, I guess I am fated to be here too and face my challengers.You are right my friend, we cannot find peace no matter where we go because this natural tranquility needs to be cultivated from within by learning to accept others behavior. Anger and resentment are like thorns found along our journey to achieve inner peace. Cheers!

Me. I'm not a runner. But right now I will go to any place that I can earn 2,500 dollars a month. If I can find a place like that I will go in their and start a new life. I'm not a runner but having no work for four years is taking its toll already. But every day I'm hoping that I can find a job. Every day.