So Discouraged and Sad

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I have been out of college for several years and have been thinking about going back for my masters for about half that time. It wasn't really anything I thought I wanted to do but now I do. For a while it was just going back to school for the sake of going to school until I found this program. I was thinking one day, "Why don't the Art Institutes offer creative writing programs?" And then some little voice in my head said "Have you tried the School of the Art Institute of Chicago (the alma mater of someone I admire very much)?" And what'd ya know? They have what sounds like the absolute perfect program for me!! It's an MFA in Writing, I can focus on any kind of writing I want or several kinds, they don't lock students into any one kind of writing, and they encourage writing students to do a cross-disciplinary study in another area, which means I can study photography and print media as well, putting all of this toward becoming an indie publisher, which I have recently decided is what I really want to be when I grow up. I haven't heard back from them on whether or not I've been accepted. A guy I talked to in the admissions office said they usually start sending out decisions 6-8 weeks after the application deadline, which was January 17, so I'm not worried about that yet. But if I do get accepted, I have NO IDEA how I am going to pay for it. It's very expensive - one semester costs almost as much as my loans for my full five years of undergraduates!! - and I can't get any more loan money from the government. If I get accepted I am eligible for scholarships but there's no way they'll pay for everything, if I even get any. And I fully intend to apply for a teaching assistanceship but again... not going to pay for everything. I am so sad and discouraged that I have figured out what I really want to do, found a graduate program that fits perfectly, and I still might not be able to do it because of money.