My brother is leaving for Manila and I feel super sad
By choybel
@choybel (5042)
Philippines
July 11, 2012 4:09am CST
In about an hour and forty minutes from now, my brother's plane will be taking off to Manila. He will be having his review there and hopefully passed the board exam which he will also take there. I believe he is on his way to the airport as I type this with heavy heart and teary eyes. He will be staying there for the duration of the review and the board exam and probably more. I know I will miss him because I already am starting to. We spend many memories together, good and bad, and now I feel like I'm losing an important person in my life. It surely won't be the same without him around. I'm going to have to go fishing alone. I'll have no one to share conversations with and even argue things with. I didn't want to go with the rest in sending him to the airport because I hate saying goodbyes and I am afraid that I might embarrassed myself by crying in the airport. I have been trying to put this off my mind since last night. I actually have not slept the whole night and did many other things just to distract myself off the thought but now it's all coming in like a flood and I feel like bursting with tears. I sound humiliatingly pathetic, I know, but that's just me. Anyway, I know I'll get over this soon.
So, have any of you guys had to say goodbye to a sibling or any family member but didn't have enough guts to? How hard was it? Tell me.
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6 responses
@jazel_juan (15745)
• Philippines
12 Jul 12
Well, you are not loosing him choy, he will come back no matter what. Be happy for him. I felt this way when my brother started working overseas as seafarer since it is just the two of us, no other brother or sister, i feel like i am loosing a part but then later on i got used to it.. 
so cheer up, he will come back.
so cheer up, he will come back. @choybel (5042)
• Philippines
12 Jul 12
I am actually happy for him because I know this is for his future. It is just sad that he had to be somewhere so far to do this. I will get used to it but right now I just feel alone and sad again whenever I think about it. I guess I will be spending more time here to cheer myself up. Thank you very much for comforting me.
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@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
11 Jul 12
I hate so much to hear about your brother moving. It sounds like the two of you have a very strong bond. I haven't had to say bye to a sibling but I sure was sad when I left my cousin behind many moons ago. I loved her like a sister; we were very very close. It was and is still hard whenever I think about it.
There is nothing to be ashamed of if you cry or show sadness. He is an important part of your life. I hope that you stay in very close contact with him even though he is away.
Take care and I will be thinking of you.
@choybel (5042)
• Philippines
12 Jul 12
My brother and I share many things and he is the only brother I can really talk to almost about everything. I didn't realize it actually until I heard the news of him leaving. I barely hang out with friends anymore and it was okay because hanging out with my brother was so much more fun. Now, it's just me alone and it's still hard thinking that I won't be able to share some conversation with him during fishing session or dinner at home. I am definitely going to miss his crazy ideas and his obsession with his coin collection and all that. All I can really do now is hope that everything goes well for him and pray that he be safe and successful in his path. We will definitely meet again some day. Thank you for the solace.
@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
11 Jul 12
I am hoping that he will come home sooner then you had expected or that you will be able to visit him. I know how you feel about having to say goodbye to someone, and it can be very overpowering when it comes to emotions.
@choybel (5042)
• Philippines
12 Jul 12
I am not expecting him home anytime soon but I already have plans on spending summer next year there with my girlfriend and probably with some of my siblings as well, so if my brother is still there then we could spend the summer all together and that would probably be a lot of fun. Right now, I take comfort in the fact that he needs to do this and do this right for himself and perhaps for us also, so I pray that he does. Thank you very much.
@airasheila (5454)
• Philippines
11 Jul 12
good day choybel,
it is really hard to say goodbye. thus, this word will somehow force your eyes to drop a tears. however, saying this line is just a temporary sadness, that in time, we can adjust in that situation. just like in what you have post, sooner your brother will be back at your hometown and when that time comes, your bonding will somehow resume. or, it may be in either way around, who knows, you will be following him in going to Manila. hence, life is unpredictable, we cannot grasp what is really in-store for us.
@choybel (5042)
• Philippines
12 Jul 12
Thanks for consoling me. I do have to adjust to this new situation. I am actually used to not being with him most of the time but that's because we don't share the same house anymore and I know that he is just somewhere near. This time however, it's adjusting to the knowledge that he is now far and we are really not going to share good and bad times together for a long time. All I can do now is hope and pray that he makes it through his new life there and that he passes the board exam. Life is indeed unpredictable, and with this many things that suddenly happen can really be some sort of surprise to us. Thanks again and good day to you too.
@aminul842700 (861)
• Dhaka, Bangladesh
21 Feb 13
This is one of the part of life. He must go for better professional matters. We should pray for him for safe journey. Have a nice day.
