Feeling of a pang of not liked or wanted or something not expressable

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Hi there, My feeling is sometimes in my heart, I feel a pang of not being liked or something that I don't express. Probably a bit of loneliness when it comes to hanging out with cousins hangouts or family reunions. I just recently had a family reunion from my dad's sad. I did try to mingle with cousins or relatives especially young and old ones my age or older. I did enjoy my family reunion but unfornately its over and i'm still kinda sad as if I miss something. I also feel somewhat jealousy but i don't think it's direct toward to someone. It's more like the situation. I just feel some certain guy cousin of mine doesn't like me and i don't know why i worry of those things. my mom says I should not try too hard to be liked or center of attention. I'm a capricorn... and i guess i had that feeling of wanting to be liked or pushing myself on doing something to be liked or loved. How do I remove about trying too hard to be liked and loved especially with cousins? Have you had this feeling? What do you do if you are with cousins or reunion and you feel that someone or some people don't click with you on family reunion?