..standing at the edge of the earth
By adnileb
@adnileb (5287)
Philippines
August 4, 2012 10:49am CST
Wounded.
Stressed.
Confused.
Helpless.
It's August now and still can't enough of the wound that scarred me last year. That until now, I am stressed. So I am confused on how to get over it and at the same time, I am helpless.
It's been so long since I've here. How are you guys? Me, not fine. I am standing on the edge of the earth. Everything now is starting to cover me up and eat me whole. And I need to get out of our country as fast as I can. I mean, to work abroad is the best thing I can do to solve ALL my problems.
I hope no one else here is having a BiG problem other than me.
Or is there anyone?
Friends, I need you to cheer me up.
I am so exhausted. 
It's August now and still can't enough of the wound that scarred me last year. That until now, I am stressed. So I am confused on how to get over it and at the same time, I am helpless.
It's been so long since I've here. How are you guys? Me, not fine. I am standing on the edge of the earth. Everything now is starting to cover me up and eat me whole. And I need to get out of our country as fast as I can. I mean, to work abroad is the best thing I can do to solve ALL my problems.
I hope no one else here is having a BiG problem other than me.
Or is there anyone?
Friends, I need you to cheer me up.
I am so exhausted. 1 person likes this
4 responses
@suni51 (3431)
• India
4 Aug 12
Hi Beli- Standing on the edge of earth- Which pole, north or south? I mean either side is too cold! Do you want me to bring an electrical blanket? How is your health- I mean with so many problems you had been suffering last year, I am not sure you should be here but in a country where good medical facilities are available. Do you want a medical insurance to cover you from top to bottom? As far the size of the problem, that sounds BIG but how big? That is a big question again? I hope to solve some of your problems if you let me know about your problems in a little more detail.
I can't tell the story actually. It's too private. So a cheer, an encouragement, an advice, or a JOKE from you will do.
@bhabycatch013 (9150)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
hi adnileb,
We all have problems it's just how we handle it and how we going to fight it and live our life life before, I can say don't let this past holds you back.
Enjoy life and start all over again. Scar will be there and eventually it will fade away. hope you will be feel better
happy mylotting
@adnileb (5287)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
Yes, the scar eventually fade. But this scar was here at birth, then healed when I was 6, then got scarred again when I was in third grade and then it never healed. When family is involved, it's so hard to heal a scar.
Past is past as they say but this one, still holds me back whenever and wherever I am...
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@berting600 (3453)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
I know you can do it boy and good luck fore your future to come.
@berting600 (3453)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
It sounds like it is the end of the world for you.Come on fight for your own safety and be careful in your trip to other lands to have a greener job for you.I have also felt that before I go to Taiwan to work.You must have a fighting spirit to make you achieve what you are looking for the bright side of your future.
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@adnileb (5287)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
I wish, I wish, I wish...
I already applied to one company abroad and if it's not for me, then it's not. I have to try again to another place. And yes, I must have a fighting spirit, I must be strong to achieve all.
Hope it's yet the end of the world for me.
I already applied to one company abroad and if it's not for me, then it's not. I have to try again to another place. And yes, I must have a fighting spirit, I must be strong to achieve all.
Hope it's yet the end of the world for me.
@tetris15 (539)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
It appears that you still haven't moved on from whatever mishaps you had last year. I can't blame you for that. But let me ask you, do you really want to live like this? If you think the solution to whatever is bothering you is to get out, by all means, do it. I just hope you're not running away from whatever it is 'coz it just might haunt you again at the time you never expected. I wish you'll have the courage to face it so you'll know better what to do.
@adnileb (5287)
• Philippines
4 Aug 12
I don't wanna live like this. I wanted to tell the story here in mylot but I just can't. It's too private.
I tried the very best option but it didn't work and now, I am the one suffering. And until the end, I know I will still suffer. I want to go and work abroad so I can earn more money and lessen the burden in addition to escaping the dilemma I have here.
Thanks for wishing me courage. I really need it.
I tried the very best option but it didn't work and now, I am the one suffering. And until the end, I know I will still suffer. I want to go and work abroad so I can earn more money and lessen the burden in addition to escaping the dilemma I have here.
Thanks for wishing me courage. I really need it.