Bestfriend that I'd Lost
By Shavkat
@Shavkat (137213)
Philippines
August 14, 2012 8:52pm CST
True friends are really difficult to find. If you had found someone, letting go seems so impossible. Let me put the other way around, I'd lost a friend not because of hate or betrayal, it is an unexpected death took him from me. It was a crystal a clear that we were in half-way to finish our elementary, when he got sick. I thought it was just a common flu or colds, taking medications will be gone away. In some point, I admired him for so many reasons. To put in a nutshell, he was a bright pupil and graduated with flying colors. I used to see him delivering newspapers every morning in our neighborhood, before setting-off to school. We were so young then, but he was inflicted with uncurable carcinoma, diagnosed as leukemia or blood carcinoma. As soon as I heard the shocking news, I immediately took the time to see him in the hospital. I felt so anxious and scared to upset him. Along the hallway, butterflies in my stomach set-in for seeing him on the hospital bed. I don't know how to break the ice. He managed to smiled at me with joy, seemingly no excruciating pain visible. But I can see a teary eyes, then he finally broke down and cried, claiming he wants to live longer and continue to study. Instantly, my heart melted, holding back not to drop a single tears. You may not believe this, but I showed empathy. I empathized the family, witnessing the struggle in spending their available resources just to saved their loved ones. I feel sorry for hi, he is still young to face death. Years passed-by, I could still reminisce the moment, the best bonding I had with my bestfriend. d:)
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@VivaLaDani13 (60356)
• Perth, Australia
31 May 19
@Shavkat This made me cry. I'm so incredibly sorry for you losing your best friend. I feel awful that he had his whole life ahead of him but just like that, it was over. I'm so sorry. 
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@Raine38 (12257)
• United States
15 Aug 12
Losing someone dear to you this way is never easy. There will always be that empty feeling that no other person can fill. Eventually the pain goes away and although we still miss the person, we no longer feel pain, but only remember the good memories we have with them.
I have lost friends but not in this way. I know it isn't as painful as yours, but still I can somehow relate to the feeling of losing someone. I hope you no don't have to experience this again.
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@starsailover (7829)
• Mexico
19 Aug 12
Hi Shavkat: Oh I'm sorry after reading this sad story. You must be a really good friend to still remember these hard days. There are things we can't understand. Some people that we love leave us so soon. We should try to value all the time we spend with the people we love because we don't really know when they will just pass away.
ALVARO
@asliah (11137)
• Philippines
27 Oct 12
hi,
that is true,real friends are hard to find now a days because today there are many but for benefits only,i missed my true friends and they are my friend since i was in secondary high school,we cant see each other now because they have also a work and busy in their own life.
@r3jcorp (1382)
• Philippines
15 Aug 12
I could feel your heartache for the loss and I sympathize with you. I hope you could find someone who would be like him.
I lost a bestfriend too because of betrayal. She promised that she will go away to fulfill her promised, that it would do good for both of us... but until now, she is not answering my pleas. Her family is also ignoring me... You see, she owes me a lot of money and she was making my life miserable here... She promised that she will come back for me the soonest that she can, but until now, she was not talking to me anymore...
I am finding my ways to get through this... I have to be strong for my daughters and for the whole family... I guess your experience is lot better... you lost a true friend physically, but deep in your heart, you know that his presence still exist.
@luntian_grace (1373)
• Philippines
15 Aug 12
it's really hard to loose someone we love. it's hard to find a true friend. someone that is more than a blood relative to you. that you really can talk to.
i lost a friend too... it was shuttering to all of us. we did our best but i guess it's not that easy. i still think about my friend. i hope i was there to help her in her last seconds but i wasn't.
she was kill... she was shot in cold blood... the one that killed her is the gunshot to her head.
@maygodblessu44 (7336)
• India
15 Aug 12
Hello my friend Shavkat Ji,
Well, I fulley understand your feelings and belongingness for your departed friend many yrs back, haunting even today, make s you to disclose openely. Probably even now something has been more haunting you as he wanted to become something. I think you see taht his diesires are full-filled. It will calm down. There is absolutely no words with anyone to cool you . But remmeber, we all have to go, some early and some late. It is in everyone's destiny and as soon as we complete our worldly work , we all retire to our real home and join with our Master. May God support you with lot of strength.
May God bless You and have a great time 
@blue65packer (11826)
• United States
15 Aug 12
I have never lost a human best friend yet. If it would happen to me I would be devasated! I would not know to to turn to if I neeed to to talk to someone! Especailly with things that bother me! I would be sad and I know it would take along time to except!
I had a animal best friend for alomst 27 years. His name was Major and he was my horse. I had to put him down three years ago do to health issues, He was 31. That was not an easy thing to do and I still miss him from time to time! Losing a best friend at any age is not fun!
@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
15 Aug 12
I was touched reading your story.
But, this is real life. You must be sincere.
Condolences.
But, this is real life. You must be sincere.
Condolences.
@prashu228 (37526)
• India
15 Aug 12
hi,
i can understand the pain, i faced the similar situation,, when i lost my little cousin , he was still very young, just in eighth grade, he fell ill all of a sudden, all thought it was just a fever, but he passed away, they lived in a village, so don't have proper facilities, i used to play with him , whenever, i used to go there for summer vacations, ahh..very painful to remember all those still...
@deazil (4723)
• United States
15 Aug 12
It is sad to lose a friend so young, when so much of life is still ahead of you. It is good that you were there for him. He left this world with the thought of you and his family to take with him. Although your friend is gone from the physical world, you will keep him alive always in your heart and in your memory. And you do honor to his memory by telling us of him and his joy at being alive and his sorrow over his eventual passing. And of your own sorrow at losing him. It is one of the trials life puts before us. I am sorry for your loss. Although years have gone by you remember. This is a tribute to him that you do.
