"I love myLot so much I will never leave." and other lies I've told myself.

@CODYMAC (1356)
San Diego, California
August 21, 2012 10:27pm CST
Look, so I cried for a few days and then left due to my own anger not willing to accept that sometimes GOD works things out when he is ready. I am a fool myLot and you rally are great for keeping me even though I intentionally broke your rules. I have learned my lesson now, and I lost money too by not posting. So I really hurt myself. But sometimes a person needs to just step back every once in a while and let it all out... Well, I have a great job now, as a painter. I thank GOD I am doing something. I am still picking up cans, and doing other little things to keep the money up and coming in. Even if it is peanuts. But this job is great pay and I will only have it for a few more weeks but I am not needing to struggle any more for now... I am grateful too for my friends here and all they have done. How have you all been while I have been gone? Have you ever felt like the whole world was about to fall in around you and you were just about to lose your mind? Thanks for the responses...
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fantabulus
@fantabulus (4000)
• India
22 Aug 12
Hmmm codymac I also love mylot and I think all 95% mylotter are loves mylot and never leave mylot but they take break for some time and for other work. Welcome back and now join continues if possible. Ohhh God due to anger leave the mylot danger thing now through the out of mind and join mylot for happy of mind.
Bluedoll
@Bluedoll (16770)
• Canada
23 Aug 12
I don't feel any dangers around poo bears.
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
22 Aug 12
Well, I posted intentionally to get myLot to delete my account, because I was very upset and I had no where to turn. I just felt trapped and with no way out. I was also thinking about selling my laptop but now I am doing fine and will continue to post because like another said, I need to make up for lost time.
fantabulus
@fantabulus (4000)
• India
23 Aug 12
Hmmm I think bluedoll is looking originally like doll therefore not upload the photo. I like your profile name dear. You are right no danger thing may be happen around me haha...
peavey
@peavey (16936)
• United States
22 Aug 12
I'm gonna keep praying for you.
peavey
@peavey (16936)
• United States
24 Aug 12
I'm glad that you are giving God the glory and I'm looking forward to the next discussion!
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
24 Aug 12
You are the best...thank you for everything. GOD has given me this one strength, even though I whine and complain, I never gave up hope. I just always feel like something is "right around the corner". But that corner is pretty far away. Your prayers, along with everyone else caused an odd event to occur. I believe in the power of prayer, with every fiber of my being... I will start a discussion about what took place. I really changed many things in my life. Thanks for being there...
KrauseHome
@KrauseHome (36445)
• United States
23 Aug 12
When you have good things happen especially after you have been having a hard time with things it can male you very grateful all because things are getting better for you. I know what it is like when you are working full time plus it is always very common for people to continue tp find other ways to earn some extra money as well. I just know for me, I try to keep myLot a priority as well.
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
24 Aug 12
You are correct. myLot is very good to us. They have never given me any problems. But I have given them one big one. Anyway, I think that keeping up with my posts is important to also see how the friends are doing. I miss them...
Patsie Hatley is Deceased
@Hatley (163772)
• Garden Grove, California
22 Aug 12
Hi codymac I think most of u s have hit rough times a time or two.I am here in this tiresome retirement center because three years ago my son lost his job and we had to use all the savings we had trying to keep the apt rent paid and utilities. it did not work out as he could not get any job. we were evicted made homeless. as I am his mom and elderly he w s worried for me so got me put here in this tiresome retirement center paid for by my social security and ssi checks monthly ., he was out of work for two years but was helped by housing America to an apartment with another guy so they would have an address to give to prospective employers. he now working full time and using section 8 he was able to rent a one bedroom apt for 400 dollars, thirty percent of his paycheck. I am still here but I am okay as long as I have my trusty my lot. glad you came back.
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
22 Aug 12
Hello, Well, I have to tell you that I do feel a little silly because I really thought that myLot would really delete my account. But now that they have kept me, I feel bad coming back like this feeling dumb...lol Anyway, I will continue and press on, but I know that life is struggles, and I also feel like this is a new chapter in my life... Thanks for responding
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
24 Aug 12
Thanks lotterylover... I am glad to see that they dont think I am one... Have a great day...
Always smiling
@allknowing (153529)
• India
22 Aug 12
The best approach to seeking peace is to be aware of one's shortcomings. You are a fine example of that!
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
22 Aug 12
Exactly. Thanks for the comment... have a great day.
Bluedoll
@Bluedoll (16770)
• Canada
23 Aug 12
You are not alone in how you feel. Many people these days are facing all kinds of things and some can talk about them and others can't. Sure it is different for everyone but I don't think many people are free of struggles. It does get good sometimes thank God but we all can expect our share that's for sure. Do you think we need to feel grateful for the good things and things we take for granted? I've been drinking more water lately because I think it is good for our bodies. I was thinking how lucky I am to have water. It is a simple thing but how ill I would be without it. I find thinking this way, that is being grateful makes my day better, I feel better and it makes the yuk stuff, the sucky stuff, seem more bareable and not as important. I've been away from the _____________ too.
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
24 Aug 12
Right you are friend. It makes me want to press on even though in the back of my mind, I knew that something was coming. Thank you for the response.
rebel_woman06
@SIMPLYD (90717)
• Philippines
22 Aug 12
Wecome back Cody! And i am glad you finally have found a job to sustain you. Don't worry, just keep on posting to keep up with the lost time.
Cody Stewart
@CODYMAC (1356)
• San Diego, California
22 Aug 12
Hello to you. You are correct and I will continue to post because every little bit helps