This is it... What about love life anyway?

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Is it just me or I am just being too cold? If you were following my posts about me ending my novel so the comic artist team can work on it, I was reminiscing some scenes that I love most in my works. That's where that love-struck feeling sets into me. But not into someone but for my characters being in love with each other and working it on until the end. And I have this bad habit of showing it off how in love I could get on it, I even dream of myself being the protagonist as my male partner would catch me as I fall on the ground, one of the touching, "tear-jerker" (according to my friends) scenes in the story. Next thing I know I caught myself watching my favorite Anime series all over again for that fresh reference for myself in acquiring that "feel good" feeling. The following day, I grab most of my Gundam Deathscythe(s) and clean them up, adore their parts and nicely put them in their boxes for safekeeping, like a child keeping his precious toy. There goes the bad part of willpower making things realistic: (dunno; sorry for my perspective) A sales person from a shop which sells second hand cellphones was complimenting me all the time as I check the stall. To be honest, I don't get that much compliments when I visit stalls and shops, I just dress down and that's it. The weirdest part is he literally went out from his stall to hand me out his cellphone and get my number. I gave it with a bit hesitation if I'll give him a bogus number or what so he won't bug me at most. Weird. He keep on asking me if it is ready for him to court him. He's opening up every bit of his aspects in life to me and he keeps on asking me what do I look into a guy at first. My mind shoot blanks for the first time. I don't know what to say... no, I don't know if I would say things like, "I would like a guy who is a Otaku, loves Gundam and treats girls like royalty" (wow, so much for that Gundam Wing series )and well; in the end I just insisted if we can just stay on the process of being text-mates or just be around for awhile while I make up my mind or at least give me ample time to check if he's going to be suitable for me. Now I am caught into thinking if that's being too harsh or cold? I am love struck but I don't want a man to just step into my life yet. Is that normal? What the heck am I thinking/ dreaming/ yapping about?