I feel so hurt

Philippines
October 8, 2012 5:07pm CST
I kinda feel so hurt right now and I wanted to get away from this feeling. I hope my boyfriend would call to ease this pain. He is kinda busy so I don't want to bother him with that. My heart feels like bitten or squeezed. I just wanted to lay down, sleep and hug my pillow tight. But still I have a lot of work to do and even if I try to divert myself with work, I still feel pain and hurt. I don't really show my feelings (especially when I'm sad and hurt) to anybody except to my boyfriend. He's the only one who knows I am this emotional when I am hurt. But whenever he's not around comforting me, I tend to feel more pain because I can't really show it to others and I can't dare to show it out too. So here I am now writing this discussion about my pain. Just to ease this pain I have inside and let it out for a bit to feel a little relieved. I hope you guys won't bother. ^_^
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9 responses
• Indonesia
9 Oct 12
You can talk to us anytime you want, you can share whatever you feel whatever problem you have. I dont have boyfriend, been single for years. I used to talk to my best friend whenever I have problem but her husband who works overseas is back and she is kinda busy with her family and I dont want to bother her happy moment with her family since her husband only comes 2-3times/year. So right now I have none to talk to but I have mylot, and I come to mylot to share what I feel inside or to get solution for my problems. 2 cups of coffee + listening to my favorite songs + mylot...and I feel so much better.
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• Canada
12 Oct 12
I agree that I am very lucky! I have the most amazing boyfriend ever! I mean anyone can have a boyfriend, but if he doesn't respect you, make you feel better, and if you don't share communication, love, and trust then it won't last long. Hopefully things change for you soon if your wanting a relationship! Best of luck!
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• Canada
10 Oct 12
I agree fashionfever, best friends are awesome people to talk to about things. Unfortunately I no longer live close to my best friend, but I do live with my boyfriend, and I talk to him about everything and he ALWAYS makes me feel better!
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• Indonesia
11 Oct 12
That's right PurpleTeddyBear, even if we never met in real life but powerpuffgirls could consider us as a friend to talk to. You are lucky you have a boyfriend, it is nice to have someone who can understand us and makes us feel better. But I've been single for years, I sometime missed that feeling too.
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• Canada
10 Oct 12
Awwwwww! I am so sorry that you are missing your boyfriend and are in pain at this time my friend. I really hope that things get better for you, and that you can see or speak to him soon! I think you are doing the right thing though by getting it out here in mylot land! Writing about your thoughts and feelings can definitely be therapeutic to chase the blues away!
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• Indonesia
15 Oct 12
Other than mylot, Im blogging to express what I feel inside while listening to music. It can help reducing my pain. Great advice PurpleTeddyBear, writing or talking is the best way to let out what we feel inside
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• Philippines
15 Oct 12
Im really not fund in blogging. But sometimes I write down how I feel too :)
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• Philippines
13 Oct 12
That is okay friend ^u^ Reading form your comments here in myLot Land made me feel a lot better ^^ people whom I do not know are giving advises and sharing their thoughts. I really feel happy. :) Thank you
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• United States
9 Oct 12
Awww, I hope you feel better and are able to talk to your boyfriend soon :( I know the feeling. My boyfriend is pretty much the only one who can make me feel better about anything. But since he's in the army he's away most of the time and can't really be here for me and always make it better. When I can't see him or talk to him, I keep my pain bottled up because I don't want anyone to see. That's when I come on myLot for a little bit to help make me feel better until my boyfriend is able to talk to me.
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• United States
9 Oct 12
I actually ended up getting a skype call from him early this morning once he landed in Korea. I'm still sad he had to leave but getting that call and hearing his voice made me feel so much better. Hopefully he'll get more time to talk soon and hopefully he'll buy a phone over there. Lol and I do love surprises and presents..maybe he'll send me a package of goodies in a few weeks :)
• Philippines
13 Oct 12
Me too. I love surprises and I love to surprise him as well :D Hmm but I never tried being surprised from my boyfriend yet ^^ maybe soon. I am just surprised and glad when he calls me without me knowing ^^. well that's all I am surprised at :)
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• Philippines
9 Oct 12
Yeah, it's really hard but I'm trying my hardest to be strong and don't want to think about the pain. Hmm.. it's kinda relieve and nice to hear that someone feels the same way as I do. My boyfriend is the one who can cheer me up when I'm in pain too. I hope he gets a time to talk to me soon and you too. hope you boyfriend will call you soon or maybe give you a surprise. ^u^
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@Erynn14 (357)
• Malaysia
9 Oct 12
That was kinda bad. But, probably listening to music and songs will make you feel better besides writing discussion on MyLot. Most of the time I ease my pain by crying out in the bathroom. After having shower and crying inside the bathroom, it makes me feel better. Sometimes I listen to music to ease the pain. Listen to those lyrics makes me feel better. It eventually calm me with those lyrics in the songs. Sometimes, when I was unable to cry out and listen to music, I will find a wall to punch. Probably it was stupid. But at least those pain went to my hand instead of my heart. Well, Writing out discussion will also ease your pain. Hopefully you are alright now. :)
• Philippines
13 Oct 12
Thank you so much for the response. I too, sometimes do the same thing. punching on walls, cry out when I'm alone or in the bathroom too. Right now, I am listening to music, it feels kinda okay now. I also watch animes when I'm sad.
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• Philippines
8 Oct 12
There are times that we feel hurt or in pain. In my opinion I think the best thing to do is not dwell on it. Think of the good things that happened to your life. Think of the blessing you have received so that you'll feel better. Don't be too emotionally dependent to other people. Keep yourself busy doing other things in order to divert your attention. I hope that you'll be able to ease the pain your feeling right now. God bless.
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• Philippines
9 Oct 12
Thank you friend, Yes I am doing that too. Especially that I have a lot of works to do. But whenever I'm alone or just resting from stressful work, I don't really expect to feel the pain but I still tend to do feel it unconsciously. I am also coutning my blessings everytime I feel it again and would even think about happy times and funny times in my life. But still after that, I feel it again
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@ztuberi (395)
• Philippines
9 Oct 12
Let's have a bite of chocolate cake. I'm also like that with my husband. I show my emotions to him only. But in reality, they cant always be around to comfort us. We should know how to cheer up even without them.
• Philippines
13 Oct 12
I agree, that's why I had a break here in mylot to know how to comfort myself. The only person who can understand us the most is just ourselves so I'm kinda relieve now. hugging myself alone and treating myself really makes me a little happy :)
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@Paper_Doll (2373)
• Philippines
9 Oct 12
I am inspired to know that kind of relationship you and your boyfriend have built. Hope you'll continue to make each other as your source of strength. It will really help strengthen the bond and the foundation of your relationship. Hope you'll be able to see him the soonest to ease the pain you're feeling right now. Maybe it will help a little if you tell us why you're feeling that way. Thanks.
• Philippines
13 Oct 12
Thank you~ Hmm. I don't really know the source of this pain or maybe I just don't want to say it out to the people. I am a little fine now. I took a break from myLot to ease this pain ^^ and now I'm feeling kinda okay. :) thank you for worrying
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@asliah (11137)
• Philippines
22 Dec 12
hi, i also did that,i wrote the feelings that i had when i broke up with my ex lived in partner,i release that sadness here in mylot,and its really helped me a lot,and now that i am free and single,i could say i am more happy now and enjoying my single life.
@litvillegas (1274)
• Philippines
8 Oct 12
Hello friend First, Thank you for sharing your pain to us. I know the feeling, and I hope I can comfort you. Sometimes life circumstances has caused such hurt and pain. I'm comforted with the words in the Bible that God is the great comforter. He gives peace and healing to your hurting heart. It says; "Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved." Be strong friend and I hope you will find comfort today..:)
• Philippines
9 Oct 12
I soon will friend ^^ and thank you so much for those phrases form the bible. Sometimes when I'm in bed, I just think that God is with me and that he's hugging me (by means of hugging myself). I always feel safe everytime I do that. ^^
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