My mother passed away two months ago

@humairaku (2038)
Indonesia
October 16, 2012 12:27am CST
I cant forget the moment when my mother passed away. It occured two months ago. She got sick for a year before she's gone. My mother is everything to me. I cant stop crying till today. Everytime I remember her, I cry. I pray a lot to God to place her in the best place in heaven. I miss her everyday. She completes me and nobody could replace her. There's a big hole in my heart because of her death..:(
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@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
19 Oct 12
first i want to say, Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun everything human will be die...we are next..I do hope God had forgiven your mother mistake and accept her kindness..Amien... I can feel your lost humairaku.. our mother like our half of our life.. when our mother leave us, there are a big holes in our life.. i do hope you can be strong..pray for your mother..that`s all she need from you as your kindness to your mother.. always be nice with her friends..that`s our prophet guide and instruction..
@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
19 Oct 12
i didn`t watch your facebook from 2 months ago humairaku.. maybe 1 or 2 weeks you contact me again and i reply it, and as your mylot friend, i didn`t realize that you are in sad situation..iam sorry for it.. i do hope you can be patient..in indonesian terms, you should "ikhlas"...we can`t make our lovely person back to us... i ever feel the same like you, when my sister passed away 2008 ago..it`s hard for me when iam still working in bekasi with many pressure and task..sometimes i feel, maybe it`s the God will for making me back to my hometown and keep care my parents... i believe every mother is the center of family..and it happens to your family.. are you older daughter in your family?? how are your sister and brother??
@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
24 Oct 12
i just know that you have another testing from God about the sister of your daughter...but like you said, i didn`t know about your mother information because you didn`t make it highlights..and if iam not wrong, some of your friend too maybe didn`t make comment too about situation to your mother.. how far from your home and your mother home??but is it still one city?? or maybe when i send you message asking about batik, do you always said that you are outside your city, it means you visit your mother home?? so who take care your father now?? your sister ? or does he live alone??
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
19 Oct 12
Thanks for your condolence Adhyz..Yeah, it's really hard losing people we love espeacially our mother. As I told before in this discussion that my mother is everything to me. I used to rely on her to whatever happened to me. but now I lose person I always count on. I'm like a phony for a while. I got lost. I dont what kind of world would be without my mom beside me. mother is a center of my family. so it becomes imbalance when she's gone. but I want to accept this and let her go. I know God has given her a best place for her in heaven. She has already met her Khalik on a good way.
@alutka (211)
17 Oct 12
I'm sorry, I had a similar situation, despite the passage of years has not diminished the pain, but only we can with it zyc.Kazdy must go through it alone, in their own way, but you're not alone, you have us!
@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
19 Oct 12
yeah..it happens to me too humairaku when iam on the buss from bekasi pool to cengkareng airport, i cry on the way and it happens again when iam on flight from jakarta to makassar, i cry in 2 hours flight.. until my sister buried, my tears had been over..maybe iam crying from my cottage (bekasi) until makassar airport and it`s gone when iam arriving at Kendari it happens in 2008
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
23 Oct 12
I'm so sorry for your sister, Adhyz..but losing mother is different than losing a sister. ya, of course we love bboth if them but mothet is more than a sister. i will cry if my sister ir brother pass away but the sadness wont be last forever. what about losing our mother, your grieve will be last forever, at least last longer than losing a sister. mother is everything to me. she gave birth of me and she taught me everything i didnt know. she gave me advice, the wisest ever. i'm like me today because of her. meanwhile a sister, i grew up with her. both of them have different meaning and position. they cant be comparable.
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
18 Oct 12
thanks for your support dear..it means much for me..for people around me I am as normal as oher people. there's no sadness appear on my face, and no more tears in front of them. but actually my heart still hurts just like two months ago. i cry most everutime i take for pray. i cry whenever i remember her. i cry everytime i realize that she's already gone. i cant stop my tears whenever i remember all happy and sad memories i ever had with my mom. those memories are so painful but people around me said that i must face it abd keep moving on. even i'm crying when i'm writing this..:'(
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
18 Oct 12
Two months really isn't a very long time since your mother passed away, so it is natural that you are still grieving for her and that you feel pain when thinking about her on a daily basis. To be completely honest with you, the pain at losing your mother is something that is never going to go away, but there will eventually be a time that it won't hurt so much. This might be something that happens weeks from now, it could take months, and yes, it could even take years before this pain goes away.
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
18 Oct 12
you're absolutely correct, dear. once i ever thought that my pain will go away after some times but i was wrong. now i realize that this painful feeling will be part of my life during I live. mother is the obe who cant be replaced by another person. maybe she's not the best mother for someone else but for me she's the one and losibg her means my world stopped spinning. my father is still alive actually and thanks God he's so healthy but father is different person. he cant be a mother. mother is the one i saw for the first time. she is always there whenever i have problem. now i dont have someone who can understand me beyond myself. and you know what everytime i realize about this i cry. she's everything to me and now she's gone and never come back. the world seems smaller for me..:(
@Bhebelen14 (5194)
• Philippines
22 Oct 12
Hi humairaku, i understand how you feel and sorry for your lost. My mom is alive and staying here with us but my husband mom was passed away many years ago. Up to now he's crying and felt sad whenever he missed his mom and it makes me cry too because no matter how i love him i can not love him like the way his mom does. Like you there's a big hole in his heart and no one can replace it.
• Philippines
24 Oct 12
Hi humairaku, i can control my tears while reading your response to me. I always love and treating my mom very well. I always made sure that's she happy and healthy. She is staying here with us for a month. I know your hurting right and i will take a long time before you can move on. Also you might can not see you mom but the truth is she is watching you and your brother every night and day! Be brave and always pray for her soul.
@deazil (4723)
• United States
16 Oct 12
Dear humairaku, I am so sorry for your loss. It is very sad to lose one's mother. You want them there always, to share with you, to love you, to help you. There is a certain kind of comfort in a mother's arms you cannot get elsewhere. I lost my mother 7 years ago and I still cry over the loss. I need her now to help me. But you have youth on your side. I am 64, my mother was 87. And you have a child. It is good to grieve and mourn the loss. You are not alone in that. Maybe you should be to your child the kind of mother yours was to you. That is her legacy. She showed you how to be a mother. She taught you well, now use that knowledge to help your child grow to have that same loving quality. Your mother will live on through you. She also lives in your heart and your memory. That will never change. You lost your mother so young, but God has a plan and it's not for us to know why He works the way He does. I understand about the hole in your heart. There is one in mine too. Remember, you can always come here to talk.
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
18 Oct 12
thanks dear deazil.. it's the biggest lost of my life. like other people, i never thought before that I will lose my mother this soon. she has already had seven grandchildren but she's still too young to die. she even didnt reach 60..! I really hope she can live longer than her age. but God has decided the different way. i know God loves my mom.more than we do cos God has taken all pain from my mom which we, as her family and those who really love her, couldnt do. all i can say is rast in peace mom. for us, you never die..
@lymsnb (223)
• China
17 Oct 12
i am sorry to hear that , do not sad and sorrow ,cheer up ,my dear friends i believe that your mother in heaven do not want you unhappy .wish you happiness every day !
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
18 Oct 12
thanks dear..i know that my mom doesnt expect for our sadness. i know she went to heaven peacefully. and i'm sure she is beside God right now. she loves God very much during her life and now God rewards her by placing her in the best place beside God. i'm sure about it. but realizing that mom has already gone still hurts me. yeah, i need longer time to recover my feelling. wish me luck, dont you? :)
@julyteen (13252)
• Davao, Philippines
16 Oct 12
We have similar emotions when my Mom passed away more than 4 years already. While on grieve I inform myLotters about my situation within a week. I can't imagine my feelings. My mind is outside and wondering what will happened, no more Mom to take with us. Until now I constantly dreaming my Mom and I felt she always be there watching us.
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
22 Oct 12
Sorry to hear about this. I know how hard it is to lose someone we dearly love so much. I also lost my grandmother who raised me till I was adult. It's so painful and I cried for many months.
@ardoy0731 (7308)
• Philippines
16 Oct 12
It is really hard to lost a person we loved.The pain is always be there as the day goes by and won't take away easily.It takes time to heal and recover yet we will still misses them and won't forget for the rest of our life.
@fatlex06 (895)
• Philippines
16 Oct 12
I feel for you dear. Yes, let yourself grieve for now. It's okay as long as it will not take forever. I know that your mom is with our Almighty already. Just asks for her continuous guidance and care. But you have to move on with your life. I hope that hole won't be empty no more. Just be strong for yourself and your family. Atleast, your mom is not suffering anymore because of her illness. She's resting now. Always pray to God.
@humairaku (2038)
• Indonesia
16 Oct 12
Thx Fatlex. What makes me so sad is that my mother is not too old to die I think. She even hasnt reached 60..! I know that how long we live is God's authority to decide but still it makes me so sd. I really hope I can spend more time with her. Sharing cooking recipes, asking for her advice about everything. Life is hard sometimes but everytime I saw her, my burden was likely taken away. Now I dont have someone like her. I know I must move on. I have a child to raise. Yeah, ypu're right I can be so sad today but I must move on. But about the hole, I think no one could fill it. She's unreplaceable.