Sometimes I think I want to die...
February 7, 2013 10:17am CST
I am always thinking of death. I always say I want to die. My life is full of darkness. Sometimes I think if the Lord is still listening to me. I believe in miracles and God's time of giving blessing but it is almost three years I'm waiting. I passed my initial interview on the job I am applying for and they said that I would still have my final interview which they did not mention as to when it would be. My family is starving and they need my financial support. I don't have any single cents to give them. I don't want to live anymore in this house I am staying in at this moment. I want to be with my family but I don't know how to give them financial support when I leave this house. This house is such a hell to me.
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8 Feb 13
Never give up?never never give up
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8 Feb 13
Hi Extremebeauty and welcome to my lot. I don't know a single person in the world that hasn't said that for one thing or another. There is none of us that live a prefect life we all have our own demons to deal with in this world one way or another. This one is too fat this one is too skinny this one has this and this one has nothing we all have our problems to deal with daily. But God don't want us to kill ourselves God wants us to learn how to deal with the evils in this world and become a stronger person. The devil will try his best to make us think we aren't good enough one way or another if we let him. In the king James bible look up Luke 10;18-19 and in the name of the LORD Jesus Christ order that evil out of your life. If you want to really know what God wants you to do go listen to this man he can help you to understand Gods blessings HE wants you to have. http://www.shepherdschapel.com/index.htm This man can help you know what God wants from all of us. Hosea 6:6 God says all HE wants is our love. This isn't the time to get weak and do something stupid this is the time to stand up and look for Gods love.
8 Feb 13
Hi Extreme! Why? Where are you living now? I thought you are living with your parents. Don't despair too much. We all have our ups and downs. I suggest you don't wait for that job which has kept you waiting for a long, long time. Look elsewhere and do not limit your application to just one or two companies. Apply in 30 or 50 companies at the same time. Submit your resume and wait for responses.
8 Feb 13
Hello there ! Life is called life because it is hard because if it is not hard then we can't call it as life but a dream. Do you agree ? Life is just like this , this hard , boring , irritating , hurting , painful and always sad and these whole thing that you are feeling right now will really pass , believe me it will really ! All you need is never stop calling God , talk to him ! You know what ? Even the silent whisper of your heart He knows ! All the things you're undergoing now is but a test , hold on and fight more ..don't look at it as a block but look at it as a challenge and think that you are bigger than those problems , that you can overcome and crashed them because you are beautiful , talented and God is there as your front line back up ! Praying for you ,. God bless you !
8 Feb 13
I really feel sorry for you but I do not think, you need to be hopeless.I am sure you have some skills to lead a decent life. See around you and you will find many people with skills less than you are earning their livelihood.Please give up your pessimistic view and explore your skills to match your work.
8 Feb 13
Oh, please, don't ever think of anything like that. Life may be difficult almost all the time, but you must not give up. Life will always be full of challenges and most of these challenges are very disturbing and all we can do sometimes is worry. Don't give up. Pray harder. If you think that God does not seem to listen, you're wrong. Maybe there's a perfect time for your prayers to be answered just don't give up. I know that being jobless is so depressing because I've been there too. I was so ashamed because I was twenty three and still being supported by my parents, and my parents did not have enough back then to begin with. But somehow, I've managed to make it through. I kept on applying for jobs, I go out almost everyday, walking under the heat of the sun, inhaling the smoke and the dust and the city trying to find a job. And by God's grace,after months of trying, I finally got hired. Just keep on going. Life is good, I'm sure that your time to enjoy it will come soon.
7 Feb 13
I understand how it is to be financially broke you can't do anything when you don't have the money even for transportation expense so you could find a job. It is useless to wait for their call if it's been a while since your last interview with them. I hope you have good friends whom you can turn to for help so you'd be able to do what needs to be done. Start looking at things in a positive way, it won't help you feeling the way you do right now. Three years since the last time you had work? It's been long enough you should have tried looking for other prospects. Don't give up and lose hope it should be enough motivation and resolve thinking that your family needs you. Good luck.
7 Feb 13
IT happens..sometimes i feel the same too. Are you solely depended on online income? Try for some anoter job which best suits your skills. Join in those sites like Skillpages where you can demonstrate your skills and get hired. All the best. Please don't be in darkness. I know it well what happens to our soul..
8 Feb 13
if you want to try to get the better life. do not give up cause of many problem of life. life is full of sacrifice. do not give up everything's gonna be alright. believe in your GOD will help you.