MUST NOT BE THAT DISAPPOINTED. NO PAY ANYMORE. I STILL CAME BACK????

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Well not like I thought I would catch anyones attention. I am in no way a writer I just kind of say what is on my mind does not matter if anyone reads it they are just my thoughts, and it makes me feel better to get it out i guess. I am feeling pretty good today. totally broke no money no rent, no electric or gas bill money. i have a little bit for the bills and for them only. no gas for the car nothing that is a necessity even. like conditioner for your hair, not anymore. that to me is something I can do without. I have over the last 6 months taken in a few youngster whom had no where to go they are kids still in school. they are good kids. and what ever i have they did not, i do not have much but there is always room for someone who needs a place to stay well for as long as the landlord lets me. i am 4 months behind as of the first. good news you know if things could not get any worse. I know what has happened but I would like to have a little hope. I know it is not so. I have some of my grandmothers old books that she gave me on craigslist for sale about 1200.00 bucks worth and someone contacted me about purchasing them, send a check. no transactions take place until the check is verified and clears the bank. of course that would be my saving grace and help me get caught up but you see my luck never goes that way. my boyfriend is even trying to sell his truck which will leave him with no vehicle. this check looks very real and they know that nothing at all happens until it clears but why do they have to prey on people who have nothing or struggling, all i want to do is help others and i have nothing.. it will buy me a little bit of time with the landlord and hopefully something will come up for the first time in my life which i never imagined i would have to do is i have an appointment tomorrow with the local church charity to ask for help. something or somewhere i never would of thought i would be. save your money for an emergency......I never thought I would get sick loose everything i worked for basically and to then get told that pretty much any government agency, charity or those who are suppose to help those in need that they can not help me because i did not make enough money to file taxes. is that not one of the main reasons i would need help....it is like a double edge sword. the one good thing i can honestly say is i might be behind on my bills not much left of what i worked all my life for, but in all honesty I found out who my real friends are, they are the ones who are still here no matter what. and i am very very grateful that through all the crap i have been through in the last 3 yrs. I am glad.... i know who i am, have not changed i am doing the best I can but i am not as shallow or fake as the people i once thought were my friends, but only when i had money and a new car.... how pathetic.... Yesterday I got an email that told me mylot does not pay people to post any more. and they even gave me a link to go to another site. and i did go to the other site. but i won't be going back. for one i kind of like this site, could not find my way around the other site and then there are all the almost snobby stuck up kind of things you must do in order to be part of their site. i honestly thought i would not be back just because i was hoping to get paid. instead i decided today it was something that i was enjoying and if you are someone whom had money and fell on some hard times, just remember money does not make you happy of course it is more comfortable to cry in a mercedes than on a bicycle. and alcohol does not solve some peoples problems neither does milk. I am who i am and would not go back and change what happened because it is what has made me who i am, and i certainly am glad i got to know my true friends.... thank you..... have a great day. I'm just sayin'................................whatever is in my head.......