July 8, 2013 “She stopped caring... and started laughing.”

By Kate
Phoenix, Arizona
July 8, 2013 10:47pm CST
i've never been the journaling type but i think it may help to stop my mind from racing during stressful times in my life. I am a 22 year old nurse (well almost nurse) i just recently got a dream job in a new graduate program at a local hospital, bought an apartment with my best friend and met the love of my life. Just last week i found out i failed my boards and now am jobless and feeling like crap. I have worked my ass off in nursing school, failed one semester but stuck it out and put my whole heart into this career. I worked at a hospital all summer to help improve my skills which i felt it did and i was completely confident and proud of all my hard work. Thinking back now i feel pathetic to be sulking in my own pity especially for a stupid standardized test however its a huge disappointment in my eyes. One side of me feels this is a great opportunity to start a new path into the nursing world and the other side feels "why does this bullshit have to happen to me". We'll see what tomorrow brings.
2 responses
@hsofyan (3447)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
18 Aug 13
I believe that, in addition to the maximum sought, God has a reason for you. Regret and sorrow does not solve the problem. Come on rise up! Then finish the current job, no matter how small it is. Later you will reap the rewards that may be unexpected.
• Portland, Oregon
10 Jul 13
It's natural to feel down when life's trials pile up on you, but you are still very young and have a lot to look forward to. Some day you will look back on this and feel silly. I do it all the time