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Being I was so busy this past Friday, I've decided to just wing it. I've got some free time right now so I thought I'd update everyone on my busy schedule.I've accepted a new job covering the political field and I'm quite enjoying it. However, I'm still writing for INFORMED and covering local issues as well as breaking news. There's also my blog Living With Hearing Sensitivity where I talk about my condition learning to accept, cope and adjust to living with severe tinnitus, severe hyperacusis with vertigo and directional hearing issues. It's been 3 years now. Every day proves to be a unique struggle. I was recently at my ENT with new concerns so we're getting another hearing test done just to see what might be causing some of my hearing issues. On top of that, I still do my walking therapy which I swear by. With no cure in sight for my disability, it's important to keep reintroducing sounds while following my restrictions and accommodations the best I can for a more normal lifestyle. Maybe I'm too busy, that's a question I often ask myself. However, it's the moments I'm not busy things get a bit hazy for me. The tinnitus spikes, concentration gets worse and I feel like well.. I'm stuck... On able to move forward. Not from the lack of trying. The hard fact is, it is what it is.. I've gone to the point of every test possible has been done and while I've improved in some areas in others I've relapsed. Drive and determination can only take one so far. It's time to accept at this time, this is as good as its going to get. Though that's a tough one for me because it just isn't good enough. So, yes I'm a workaholic playing a balancing act between work and life. Juggling all the pieces and I need to STOP! I need to now grow into "doing nothing" and being okay with that. See when I do nothing I feel uncertain about my future, my work, my condition. Photography and walking therapy helps me. It relaxes me. I tried reading a book, one that I really wanted to read. I can't wait to find out the ending but I also can't bear to pick it up. The tinnitus is so loud I can't focus on the words. I've tried to read the book out loud but that makes it worse with the hyperacusis. That is where I'm at.. last night I just got done covering Donald Trump's win in #Indiana and Cruz dropping out. It played right into my next article piece I'm seeking. I can't say because then everyone would cover it about I'm taking things and looking at them differently now. I hope to be back in here again soon with more to tell. Today, I'm sharing one of my newest spring bloom photos.