First time in 2 months I can relax on a Thursday night
@shaggin (74987)
United States
May 5, 2016 8:35pm CST
I cannot remember when the mother came and took the son to live with her but it was probably about 2 months ago.
After that (more nights then just Thursday but not always the same night for sure) he started going to the bar and staying really late after shooting practice on Thursday nights.
This is the first Thursday in at least 2 months that I can go to bed and relax and not have to wait up worrying that he would get a dui or get in accident or cheat.
I was always so full of anxiety on these Thursdays until he came home at night. It just kept getting later and later he would stay out until he finally moved out.
Before when we were together and broke up I always had all these what ifs. I do not have that anymore. Now I have thankfullys ....
Thankfully I do not have to stay up worrying about him coming home late at night anymore.
Thankfully I do not have to worry about him being annoyed by my children or being mean to them.
Thankfully I got a second chance to see why it will never work.....I am sure you get the idea.
He texted me today and said he said a bear in his yard two nights ago. I told him where he moved is a beautiful nature area and it is a good place for him. He told me to stop up anytime I want. I just didn't respond as I don't want to go there.
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@beaniefanatic13 (5068)
• Grand Junction, Colorado
6 May 16
After reading your discussions and then your responses to people's comments I see that today your having difficulties sticking to your original decision. If I may, I would like to offer some advise, you may take it or leave it, whatever works for you. If you have a project that you have been putting off, now is the time to start it and focus your mind and energy to something positive. Generally break-ups are for the best, it just isn't always the easiest to deal with. Having something to focus our energy to in a positive light gives us the strength to stand by our original decisions. In the end it is your decision to make, I hope that you make the right one for you and your children.
@beaniefanatic13 (5068)
• Grand Junction, Colorado
6 May 16
@shaggin, mylot is always a good way to take your mind off of your personal troubles, in my opinion. I hope you have fun shopping for the events coming up in you and your children's lives. Sounds like lots of fun. Baby showers are always a great thing to focus energy on.
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@shaggin (74987)
• United States
6 May 16
I always appreciate advice sometimes I take the advice but sometimes I don't but I always store the information in the back of my brain. I have a lot to do. This weekend I have to take my children shopping for the semi-formal that we will be going to. I also have to buy the things I need to help out with my sisters baby shower. I have to make her a gift as well. I have to shampoo the carpet and repaint the ceiling in the room my man and his son were staying in. I have a lot to do I just don't feel I have the motivation to do it. Thank you so much for your kind response. I will try to spend time doing the things I should be doing and maybe it will help take my mind off things.... if I can drag myself away from mylot lol
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@toniganzon (77209)
• Philippines
6 May 16
I feel you. I wish you will continually have that peace of mind. You deserve that. WE all deserve to be at peace and be happy.
@shaggin (74987)
• United States
6 May 16
I agree everyone deserves to be happy. I wish that for everyone too. I have battled depression for 20 years and things like this just make it worse. It was only one time in my entire life I actually felt happy and that was a few months with my guy I am with when we were together before. I do not feel that again this time around. Things were very different. He was very distant this time around.
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@Hatley (163772)
• Garden Grove, California
6 May 16
sounds l ikle yo u really needed to part compan y with him for s ure. I surew wuld not visit him either yo u are good now so y ou should st ay that way.
@shaggin (74987)
• United States
6 May 16
He texted me today asking if I wanted to come over for dinner later and to watch a movie. My daughter is going to a dance at 7 so I will be home with my son so I cannot go. He said maybe this weekend. I told am so busy this weekend I will not be able to either. I am crying my eyes out today while texting with him.
@Macarrosel (7498)
• Philippines
6 May 16
And now you have peace of mind with no more worries at all. That's great to know. Hope you won't make decisions that will make you to worry again. You know what I mean.
@shaggin (74987)
• United States
6 May 16
He and I have been texting today. I'm sure he really just wants one thing if you know what I mean. When he was here he was gone all the time and then sleeping early the following night from being tired from being out so late. He said how he really misses me and I told him what I just told you and said its not much different with him not around now. He said yes it is different and that he didn't want to be around because he felt bad for moving out. He pushed me away and I let him because I figured it would hurt more in the end to hold on when he wanted to go you know.
@pinkCardigangirl (587)
• United States
6 May 16
I'm glad the decision is turning out for the best. You have less to worry about and I'm sure a lot of stress has been alleviated. :)
@shaggin (74987)
• United States
6 May 16
Yes the stress is so much less. I was sick to my stomach with it all the time. We really haven't talked about our relationship ending or continuing though. At some point one of us will have to officially break it off but for now I am just glad to have less stress.
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@pinkCardigangirl (587)
• United States
6 May 16
@shaggin Yes. I'm sure you have enough to worry about!
