Introvert Rant
By Jaymie Suh
@cherriefic (10399)
Philippines
August 19, 2016 3:57am CST
I am an introvert since birth. I have been very shy all my life until I was able to get over my shyness. It becomes better during my mid-20's. I am able to mingle with different kinds of people.
But as I mature, it seems that my shyness is consuming me once again. It's was not like before though since I've got more experience socially. I just find it hard and tiring to deal with a crowd. I often tagged as snobbish or a loner. They just don't know that I am just too shy to even talk to anyone in person.
It affects my past relationships even with the family. They often see me as just too proud to be with them. How can people think of it that way? They judge without even knowing a person. Or maybe it is my fault that I never really admit to anyone that I am an introvert.
I worked hard to gain more skills so that I can be where I am right now. A freelancer doing work from home so that I don't have to force myself to deal with people I don't know. I have been doing that for 13 years and believe me, it was the hardest part of my life having to socialize everyday.
Now, my family hates me cause I no longer meet up with them. My brother keeps posting something negative on Facebook even to get me out of my shell. But after a few months of staying in touch and letting them in my life, I just get tired. I can no longer find the strength to laugh with his jokes or go to the places where they want me to be. I just need to focus with my life right now and I don't care anymore what anyone will think. I am just going to embrace who I am and if other people don't want to exert effort to understand that, then be it!
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6 responses
@ilocosboy (45155)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
i can see myself to you when i was in elementary and high school,they told me that am a snobbish but they dont think that am too shy in dealing with people.but as days and years gone by i noticed myself that i"ve changed alot especially when i got up in college .i deal of so many people.many says am too different with my brothers and sisters coz am theone can deal to anybody i don't care what is the status of the people am dealing with as long as i do right way and am saying the truth,that's why they always vote me as a representative of the class of my kids.as you"ve said i embrace who i am and if other can't deal with it, it's not my lost
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
Good for you! It's just all coming back to me that people around me still can't accept who I really am. They just like the funny and jolly me.
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@ilocosboy (45155)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
@cherriefic still, you don't have to change yourself for what you are now, its you and they've known you like that.
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
20 Aug 16
@Yar_Joey Yeah I guess. It's a long story with my family.
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@Yar_Joey (3271)
• Philippines
20 Aug 16
@cherriefic You seem to disagree with what I said? there is some touch of sarcasm there in your comment back
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
I guess.I just dont think I should push myself to them.
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@ms1864 (6882)
• Bangalore, India
19 Aug 16
I understand what you are going through ...I am an introvert too...but do you see? These online platforms are turning out to be the best places for people like us. The only difference between your situation and mine is that I do have people in my life who understand and know me for who I am....but that didn't just happen...I made it happen.
There comes a time in out life when we have to learn to see who cares for us...and let those people in...allow at least a selective few to get to see all of you...if they question you...and they are family...maybe they deserve an explanation as to why you are doing whatever it is that you are doing.
People can't understand us until we chose to communicate. ....and its not all up to them...it is our responsibility to understand them too.
It has to be a two way street...or it won't work.
Hope this helps.
@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
Thanks for sharing. I guess that's why I am addicted with Mylot. I can socialize without having to pretend.
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@sakinasaifee18 (575)
• Mumbai, India
19 Aug 16
I used to be an introvert, I mean I still am obviously but I have overcome a lot of my shyness and insecurities. I have realized it's important to come out of our comfort zones and make an effort in order to maintain social relationships. It takes a lot of effort, but once you get even a bit out there, it's worth it.
@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
I tried being an extrovert during my early 20s and people love me! But then I am always exhausted having to deal with them and I dont want to feel the same again. Maybe I just dont have that much energy anymore like I used to.
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
@sakinasaifee18 Yes. It doesnt mean shutting myself fromt he world. But right now, I feel that I have to.
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@sakinasaifee18 (575)
• Mumbai, India
19 Aug 16
@cherriefic I can understand that, even I can't deal with a lot of people everyday. But some level of social interaction is refreshing and even necessary sometimes.
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@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
19 Aug 16
I think you have figured it out. I like the last sentence of your post. It is so true. This is your life and you live it the way that makes you happy. If they can't accept who you are then it is their loss. I am also shy and keep to myself. I have always been that way and I have had people look down in me because of it. I do get everything you are saying, I think it is sad that your brother post stuff on Facebook to get to you. It doesn't help it only makes things worse.
@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
It affects me negatively and it makes me feel that he is pushing me further from them.
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@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
19 Aug 16
@cherriefic I can understand that and don't know how he can't see what he is doing by doing that.
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
19 Aug 16
@Happy2BeMe It's just sad that my own brother don't know me too well.
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