Anxiety Attacks Again

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I hate, hate, HATE having health anxiety. Every little ache and pain blows up to something much bigger and life threatening in my mind. For instance, earlier I had a niggling burning pain in my pelvic/hip region. This is not unusual being as I have endometriosis and adhesions in that area. Then the pain started spreading upwards toward the middle of my right side, and stretched around to my back. Now it's hurting in my shoulder. Logically I know it's probably muscular pain caused by how I've been sitting in my chair, but the illogical, broken part of my brain is freaking out. What if it's an ectopic pregnancy? What if something ruptured? What if it's a ruptured ovarian cyst? What if it's my kidney? Or my appendix? Am I going to die? I'm going to die, aren't I? OhgoodgodImgoingtodie! The worse my anxiety gets, the worse the pain gets. It's not even BAD pain. Before my panic disorder developed, I would have been annoyed by it but not thought much of it. I wouldn't have been sitting around panicking whether or not I need to go to the ER. I know this is not worth an ER trip. I'm sure if it was something serious, I would know. (Further proof that it's not serious is the fact that I'm sitting here writing about it. I'm sure if I were in danger I would not be capable of writing!) I'm just so sick of this. I want to be normal, and not panic over every little thing. Not every little ache and pain is going to kill me! I wish I could convince my anxiety of that.