I feel sad

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Today was going well until now. I hate adding my feelings on the internet but I have to at this time because I need people to talk to. I can't believe I was being talked to like I was nothing or stupid. I mean why would you do that to someone? Okay I decided to watch a show and it was Judge Faith and of course it was on youtube and I don't watch Judge shows all the time like I used to when I was younger, but I have a degree in paralegal so shows like real ones, not these judge shows like hers interest me at times. Real shows like Forensic Files or 60 minutes things like that. I was just watching because I started the show and I wanted to finish it to see what would happen. Well, of course, I get talked to like "Oh you don't want to watch anything educational or that makes you thing." Who would say that to someone and who would care? Like I do watch a lot of things but movies have been on the back burner for me because my sister passed when she was 14 and we used to do that together. We loved watching movies and stuff. I barely watch them alone, to be honest. I have not got over her being gone or anything. I would have taken a " Please watch this movie with me one night" or something like that ya know. I mean I am trying to do a few things and learn a few things from certain shows, not the fake ones but the real ones because sadly I was turned down for a job for a paralegal because I was not advanced enough. I have not talked about it to anyone until now, but yes I was turned down and I know there are more out there but if I don't have my stuff together for this position I can't do this job or be a Lawyer. I just feel like I messed up and now I am being Laughed at. I love science and Law so bad but in the end, if I can't do what someone else that is more advanced than me can then I can't be a paralegal or a future Lawyer. I have to study more which is hard because this law stuff is no joke :(