I'm Tired.

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I’m Tired. I’m tired of people putting me down. I’m tired of people talking about me behind my back. I’m tired of people trying to get information from me only to try to use it against me. I’m tired of being lied to. I’m tired of being taken advantage of. I’m tired of not getting the credit I deserve. I’m tired of being the only one that makes an effort. I’m tired of trying. Trying to fix things that will never be fixed or things that are better off never being fixed. I’m tired of being tired. For the most part, I feel like I’m a good person. Yes, I have my moments where I want the attention or credit I deserve but honestly, those are few and far between. I stand in the shadows and do what I can with what I have. Whether that’s picking up a friend and taking them to lunch because they’re having a bad week or bringing them some groceries because all of their kids are sick and they just can’t get to the store. But then the thing that pisses me off the most is how someone that wasn’t even involved, someone that didn’t even know it until after the fact, would be telling people that it was all her idea. That she gave me the money to do the things I did. And I heard it from her own mouth! This is the same person that asks to borrow money from me every 2-3 weeks. I am just plain tired. Tired of it all. But . . . I am going to continue on. For me. For my daughter. For everyone that truly cares about me and makes an effort. And I’m going to start getting rid of the people that bring me down. As for my sister, I can never truly get rid of her completely as that would mean I couldn’t see my nephews again but I can limit our relationship. After all, I don’t “support” her anyway.