Confessions: All the World is a Stage

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My dream is to be an actor. I discovered my love of acting after moving to the small town of Newnan GA during my ninth grade year. Originally I was taking a public speaking course, but since my new high school didn't have that course they put me into the drama class. Fast forward a couple months later- I'm on the stage bowing to an audience of cheering elementary school students, with my fellow drama mates. I lift up my head and peer between the bright stage lights to see everyone looking so excited, and happy. I then smiled back, and thought "I love this stuff." I spent the rest of my school career preparing for the reality of a normal 9-5 job. While also secretly planning for a life in entertainment. I continued with drama class, and I also joined chorus. I begin practicing my acting in real life. I became a living character. Soon school was over and several years later I found myself in the real world at that 9-5 job. I remembered my dream, and was disappointed in myself that I had just went along with the rat race. So I convinced myself to go for it. I got some head shots made up, and found a talent agency to join. I even joined SAG (Screen Actors Guild), which is basically a union for the entertainment biz. To my shock I got a call about a week later. A woman named Liz, informed me that she would be my agent, and would text me offers that I should reply to ASAP. And she did. The offers came in for screenings all over the world. Unfortunately they were too far away. So as I waited for something local to come up I became active in online social sites for entertainers like Project Green Light. It's always good to have connections. I met mostly producers and writers, but there was also some actors like myself. The occasional big star would pop in to promote or look for talent, but mostly the crowd was small time players. As we talked I began learning about the side of entertaining that I never gave much thought to. The fame. The stories I heard made me worry. But I thought eh, that's just a few crazy people. Then there was news story after news story of celebrities being stalked and attacked by crazy fans. And not just crazy fans, but the celebrity news organization itself. And then one day after commenting a friend of mine who is a pretty popular tv/movie actress (not going to say the name), I began getting messages in my private email from people that freaked me out. I had gotten too close to the fame monster. So here I am today. I lost contact with my agent years ago. I lost my connections. I cut myself off from that world. I still have that dream. But my fear of fame will never let it happen. What's your fear? What's your dream?