Hate
By Djhoanna li
@Friendlypink (3805)
August 1, 2018 8:32pm CST
I so hate this person. All he cares about is his self and money. I wish he will be out of my life and out of my children's life.
I always pray about this. I want to be happy. Just me and my kids. I just hate him. But he doesn't know because I am trying to contain everything for the sake of my kids. I am willing to sacrifice my own happiness.
I just think of other things to do. I just focus on my kids. I am just thinking and doing other things to make myself happy even if he is always around and ruins my day, every single day. I want to be numb. I can't even remember the last time that I have glow of happiness on my face and feel beautiful looking infront of the mirror.
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@simplfred (20641)
• Philippines
2 Aug 18
Communication with each other is important. I think you just need to sit with him and explained your side to him. Maybe both of you can still fix the issue.
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
I always talk to him about what I feel and ask him as well. But nothing is changing. His is really like that. That is why I got tired of it and just keep it all to myself.
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
@simplfred he will just say yeah. Or okay, or what can I do this is me. Or he will force me again to work for our family so that I will not be always here at home and I will not see him that much.
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@simplfred (20641)
• Philippines
2 Aug 18
@Friendlypink And how he explained his side about it?
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@rsa101 (40987)
• Philippines
6 Aug 18
Well for one I think you control your own happiness and so is your hatred. I think that for as long as you nurture your hatred on to something in your life it will stay that way and your life would be miserable. When you will be happy is like a switch which you can turn off and on. If you choose to dwell in the opposite it will not turn on.
You can be happy even there are some that hinders you to be by simply ignoring those and just decide to be happy on your own. The circumstances are just in your mind and no one can control it but you.
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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6 Aug 18
Very well said. And yes, if I will always think of the negative feelings and things it can eat me alive. That is why I focus on things that makes me happy and can make me happy.
But sometimes there are days wherein you feel that you want to just walk away from everything. I am. Just thankful that I always have my kids and family.
Thanks, have a nice day.
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@rsa101 (40987)
• Philippines
7 Aug 18
@Friendlypink Maybe you could start there with your kids. If they are the source of your joy then focus on that. Let them feel you are happy when you are with them. Sometimes it just takes looking around and see what you appreciate more than look at things that you do not like in your surroundings. When you appreciate more that you like the things you do not like just gets smaller and smaller that makes it unnoticeable anymore.
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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7 Aug 18
@rsa101 I agree, and that is what I am doing. I dance, play and do activities with my kids. It makes me happy. I also do some online stuffs to keep me occupied too.
It seems that we have the same outlook in facing this kind of situation. Have you experience such?
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@1hopefulman (45111)
• Canada
2 Aug 18
That's a terrible situation to be in. Is this man your husband and the father of your children?
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
Yes. Maybe it is one of the main reason why I don't feel pretty. Why there is no glow on my face. Wven if I am taking vitamins and putting creams to look younger and fresh because my friends and my mom always tells me that I look alot older and flat. I need to feel happy and inlove. That is the only key I guess. Ha ha
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@1hopefulman (45111)
• Canada
3 Aug 18
@Friendlypink Is your husband abusing you?
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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3 Aug 18
@1hopefulman physically no. He is just rude and insensitive.
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@BelleStarr (61463)
• United States
3 Aug 18
Can't you just leave him? It isn't fair to you, the children and even him to stay in an unhappy marriage.
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@BelleStarr (61463)
• United States
3 Aug 18
@Friendlypink Then I guess you have made your decision.
@Friendlypink (3805)
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3 Aug 18
I already did a couple of years agi last 2016 and he keeps on harrassing me. And he is harassing and humaliating my friends as well and I am scared that he might take and hide my kids away from me whenever his dad borrow the kids.
Then when we got back last 2017 of May I told him that I will do this more because of the kids. And that he needs to change and be responsible to his kids.
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@anamika161088 (11866)
• India
2 Aug 18
I hope thing between yu people will be resolved soon
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
I don't know. I don't love him the way I loved him before. It is fading more and more each day. Even how hard I try.
@Jessabuma (31696)
• Baguio, Philippines
2 Aug 18
Sorry to hear about this,I hope everything will be fine
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@toniganzon (77223)
• Philippines
2 Aug 18
Are you talking about your husband?
That's a terrible life you are living if you are.
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@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
Yes. But I am very good at making myself busy and making myself happy. I clean the house everyday. I cook 4 times a day for my family, for my parents and for my sibling. I do the laundry of everyone here every other day when my kids at school. And I always play and dance with my kids.
@Friendlypink (3805)
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2 Aug 18
Thank you. I am praying always. I want to be alive and live not just exist because I am alive.
My mom for sure and my sister prays for me too.
They know what I am going through.
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