Nervous Breakdown

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Hello Everyone, Sorry that I have been MIA for awhile. I think my last post was on 11/8. As you probably figured out from the title, things are not exactly going well. I feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown for a variety of reasons. I will list them below: 1 - Thanksgiving: Mine was good although it was a hard one emotionally. It was the first one without my cat, Jigga and Thanksgiving was always his favorite holiday. But I kept a smile on my face and hid my feelings. 2 - Renee: I had a visit with my mom yesterday and she told me some interesting things about Renee, KK’s bio mom. Apparently, Tim, KK’s supposed bio dad, has been threatening to sue for full custody of Hannah, KK’s sister. Not sure if this was before they moved in with him or not but now that they are living with him, he feels like he has full control over what Hannah can or can’t do. Which means that if he doesn't want Hannah to see KK, then I guess that’s what’s going to happen especially since KK does not want to see KK. 3 - KK’s other sister baby shower: KK has an older sister, Alissa, who is 21. She is currently expecting her first child and wants me and KK to come to her baby shower. However, there is a chance that Tim will be there and KK is terrified that he will want to pull her away to talk to her or try to hug her. She wants no physical contact with him and does not want to speak to him alone so I will have to be the bad guy and put my foot down. He already hates me and wishes I were dead so I don’t really care if I piss him off. 4 - Haven’t been sleeping well at all the last week. The last few nights I have been waking up every hour to 1.5 hours. No reason, just keep waking up. As a result, I have had a headache for two days but each day, it’s not the same headache/same spot/same pain. 5 - Writer’s Block: I am having a serious case of writer’s block and it couldn't come at a worst time. I want to enter this contest to see if I could win some money and possibly get a book deal for some of my other stories but they want a completed work. I have 100+ stories stored in various places but only one is finished but it’s not in any condition to be turned in as it was one of my very first stories and needs to be tweaked a lot. 6 - Pearl Business: I have been selling my items to just one lady lately and she’s only been buying my oysters. I’m going to have to take pictures of my grab bag stuff and put them on facebook, ebay, etc because I would really like to get rid of most of that stuff. It takes up alot of space in my room. 7 - Home: Things at my house are not that great. No one wants to help clean. Some will cook and then leave the pan on the stove for days so now instead of trying to catch up on sleep after I get done with my overnight shift. (9pm-3pm), I get to go home and clean up after two grown men. 8 - Failing as a parent: I feel like I am failing as a parent lately. KK is happy and healthy for the most part but I feel like she should eat more home cooked meals. No one really wants to cook at my house because 1, someone always complains about the food. 2, no one but me will eat the leftovers. 3, no one wants to clean up after themselves except for me and KK. 9 - My mom and her husband: Had a nice visit with my mom yesterday and even took her to lunch. Her husband still won’t have anything to do with me, KK or anyone in my town because my mom won’t have anything to do with his kids. I have tried to be the bigger person, inviting him to do things I think he would enjoy. I will be going magnet fishing this spring/summer and asked my mom to invite him but he won’t come. So that’s what I have been up to. How has everyone been and how was your thanksgiving??