Getting back to life
@BearArtistLady (5500)
United States
January 17, 2019 12:32pm CST
I had my first session with my "shrink" yesterday. I left feeling much better and it was just a get acquainted session. She did give me the same advice that many other people had been giving me about the cats, dog and the fire. I shouldn't be carrying the guilt around on my shoulders that they were killed in the fire that burned down my house. It wasn't as if PG&E called me that day and told me that they planned to burn down my house so I needed to remove my valuables and my companion animals from the premises. I had NO idea that it was going to happen and the shrink could tell that I was the kind of person that if I knew that the fire was going to happen I sure as hell wasn't going to leave and let the animals die. She also stated to me that when I felt guilty about the animals death's that I needed to place the guilt at the feet of the people responsible for their deaths...the power company. It was the first time that I felt somewhat better about the deaths of 10 small creatures that I had befriended. I still mourn them but I don't assume responsibility for their deaths. When I am able I will erect a monument to them.
I am now also ready to start moving forward with my teddy bear and stuffed creature designing and creating. My heart isn't quite as heavy from the quilt I have felt from losing Dinglebeary, Einstein, Khuay, Missy, Sweetie, Lucky, Bear, Shadow Dancer, Charlie Tuna, and Crazy Dog. We go to town again today for our appointment with our primary care physician and I want to go to the craft supply store (such as it is) and pick up a few things...if they have them. Then we go to the grocery store...maybe I'll make some chili it's great rainy weather food. It was stormy weather last night. It poured most of the night and we had thunder a lot of the night. Hopefully we can cross the creek going out. We had to cross it coming in, it was 18 inches deep...fortunately we have a four wheel drive 3/4 ton truck. Bill was driving and I had my eyes closed and hanging on to the seat with a vise grip...there's two new dents in the bottom of the seat where I was hanging on for dear life!
Say hello to Ms Chicken! But we made it okay. Since it didn't rain for about 6 hours we should be okay going out and we plan to head home before it gets too dark. It's supposed to rain the rest of the week into next week. I might not get to work the shop because of the rain.
My pain levels are getting back to normal, except for my shoulders and neck. They're still screwed up from the shots I had on the fourth of this month. I'm hoping that they will get back to normal and not hurt so badly. I'm NOT going to subject myself to the rest of the shots. The pain after the shots isn't worth the injections. I'd rather go on the way I am than make things worse each time I get the shots and then when they explained the series of shots they told me that the last shots would only last a year and then I had to have them again in a year because the nerves or the coatings around the nerves would grow back and the shot that burns away the area would have to be done again...No thank you! Once shot twice shy.
Now the only thing I need to check on is to talk to an attorney about PG&E and their filing bankruptcy and my filing a claim on my loss. I didn't file a lawsuit against them so I don't think I will be lumped in with the thousands of lawsuits that they are avoiding by filing the bankruptcy, but I want to find out where I will stand with my claim and if I need to change my actions. What really burns my soul is the scum bags paid the top brass of their company million dollar bonuses rather than pay some of the people that lost their homes and all their possessions some of the money due them. I don't understand "WHY" this was allowed to happen. They're leaving thousands of people without homes and mourning lost family members.
And they're trying to get a reprieve from the government and the taxpayers!
Okay, as my shrink said, I need to think of happier things when that takes over my mind. We may never know the "why's and wherefores" behind PG&E. If I'm going to move forward I need to assign the guilt to PG&E and allow it to rest there and go forward on my own. Yes I can make calls and demand answers but I need to get off my soap box and stop yelling. Hopefully I can start doing this. As Johnny Carson said in one of his late night skits as the great wizard (I forget the name of the wizard/psycic) "May an unclean yak back into their linen closet."
How is your day shaping up? What are your plans for the weekend? Have you had improvement in areas that have needed improvement? I hope things are going well for you! Have a great day!!! Above all have a fun weekend!
Say hello to Ms Chicken! But we made it okay. Since it didn't rain for about 6 hours we should be okay going out and we plan to head home before it gets too dark. It's supposed to rain the rest of the week into next week. I might not get to work the shop because of the rain.
My pain levels are getting back to normal, except for my shoulders and neck. They're still screwed up from the shots I had on the fourth of this month. I'm hoping that they will get back to normal and not hurt so badly. I'm NOT going to subject myself to the rest of the shots. The pain after the shots isn't worth the injections. I'd rather go on the way I am than make things worse each time I get the shots and then when they explained the series of shots they told me that the last shots would only last a year and then I had to have them again in a year because the nerves or the coatings around the nerves would grow back and the shot that burns away the area would have to be done again...No thank you! Once shot twice shy.
Now the only thing I need to check on is to talk to an attorney about PG&E and their filing bankruptcy and my filing a claim on my loss. I didn't file a lawsuit against them so I don't think I will be lumped in with the thousands of lawsuits that they are avoiding by filing the bankruptcy, but I want to find out where I will stand with my claim and if I need to change my actions. What really burns my soul is the scum bags paid the top brass of their company million dollar bonuses rather than pay some of the people that lost their homes and all their possessions some of the money due them. I don't understand "WHY" this was allowed to happen. They're leaving thousands of people without homes and mourning lost family members. And they're trying to get a reprieve from the government and the taxpayers!
Okay, as my shrink said, I need to think of happier things when that takes over my mind. We may never know the "why's and wherefores" behind PG&E. If I'm going to move forward I need to assign the guilt to PG&E and allow it to rest there and go forward on my own. Yes I can make calls and demand answers but I need to get off my soap box and stop yelling. Hopefully I can start doing this. As Johnny Carson said in one of his late night skits as the great wizard (I forget the name of the wizard/psycic) "May an unclean yak back into their linen closet."
How is your day shaping up? What are your plans for the weekend? Have you had improvement in areas that have needed improvement? I hope things are going well for you! Have a great day!!! Above all have a fun weekend!1 person likes this
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