I Became A Workaholic

@Masihi (4413)
Canada
April 14, 2019 8:45pm CST
I haven't posted on here lately as I have been going through some pretty serious emotional hurdles. Every time I start to open up and trust someone they turn on me and bite me in the face so to speak. I've been accused of so many thing that I gave up even trying. I turned into a hermit and a workaholic. Work is my release. It's the one thing that doesn't let me down. It gets things around the house accomplished. It's my personal trainer. I feel my muscles growing. Some days I'm in so much pain i can't move. Then i start to feel better. And stronger. The pain feels good, in a way. Kind of what you would feel after an intense workout. I'm learning more skills. Practical skills. Skills that are beneficial to my family, and in the future, should i find emotional healing, a blessing to others. I've written here about making my own laundry soap. But now i want to move on to make bar soaps using lye. I'm still downsizing. Still giving things to charity shops. Passover begins in a week, so it's an intense deep cleaning I must do, to get the chametz out. Chametz represents sin, all the bad things in life. As I do this, I'm looking deep within myself at my own flaws. What are my flaws? How can I be a better person? Anyway, thank you for reading this. I really needed to get this off my chest. I've been holding everything in for so long. Gave up posting on Facebook. Retreated within myself. But holding things in isn't good, is it. Anyway, I will sign off for now, and read other posts on here. Perhaps it will cheer me up.
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@RasmaSandra (71486)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
15 Apr 19
Hope you feel better after being online here. I am on my own and I have found that expressing myself through writing and poetry has greatly helped me. I work online every day taking occasional breaks and I find that helps me keep up my mood to do what I really like.
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
Yes, keeping thing bottled up only makes things worse doesn't it. It's just that I'm to the point where I'm afraid to open up in real life because I usually face angry words. I know I should puck better friends, and I try, but I guess I'm unlucky. Do you publish your work at all?
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
@RasmaSandra soooooo, niiiiice!
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@RasmaSandra (71486)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
15 Apr 19
@Masihi I write for many different sites online, I do content work that pays me, and I have two published books of poems through Amazon. And I keep on writing.
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@marguicha (212931)
• Chile
15 Apr 19
I cannot work much lately. Not since I was very ill.
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
If I'm not doing physical labour I'm doing online earning, or having a sewing project in my hands. Anything in quietness is lovely. Years ago I spent a lot of time in bed, sleeping my life away, but now, there's so much I want to learn and experience. So i work. Any type of work, both easy and hard.
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@jaboUK (64363)
• United Kingdom
15 Apr 19
This site is good for letting your feelings out, and that can help a lot. Good luck to you.
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
Thank you. I love the atmosphere here, always have.
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@paigea (35401)
• Canada
16 Apr 19
That is great to be clearing out the stuff and emotional stuff!
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
16 Apr 19
Yes I agree. Like hubby said, it keeps my mind off of my troubles. It does help a wee bit, I guess. Anxiety attacks are lessening. I mean, women have been working hard for thousands of years, so I think it would be still beneficial for today.
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@kasmakarim (1934)
• Indonesia
15 Apr 19
Don't force yourself to work too hard. Take several breaks in order to maintain your health
@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
O do take some physical breaks to rest my muscles but that's about it.
@WiseGhots (14607)
15 Apr 19
Take it easy.
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@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
15 Apr 19
Maybe when I can finally see a therapist (I'm on a waiting list to see one) and I'm finally able to work out my emotional issues.
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@WiseGhots (14607)
15 Apr 19
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