A moody and blue day...

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For some reason I slept in today. Didn't intend to. It's just how it. I meant to get up and well , ended up falling asleep again. I'm just so blessed that I didn't need to be anywhere early today, so it wasn't that big of a deal. Of course it is grey, and overcast - humid and chilly right now. Maybe that's adding to the mood. Or maybe it's just life in general. Even the dog that I'm house-sitting for has been napping most of the day. I'll start with the smaller issues first. Today I was going to tell you about a local venue closing. This is a bar that has live music. It was my bar of choice. Now I'm not a big drinker. But I love live music. This place was ideal because - it was not downtown in this college town - downtown tends to be busy, crowded and filled up with college kids. I wouldn't say it was classy exactly... but it sure wasn't a dive like some of the other places in this area. And parking/crowds were never an issue. (unfortunately this may be why they are discontinuing live music. Not enough customers) And there was a nicely sized dance floor. I love dancing to live music. When I first came to this area, I used to know no one. Now, I can go to this bar any given weekend and know 5-20 people there. The large group of people I hang out with I'm sure settle on a new place to go hang out. But where. We don't want to be crowded by the college age kids. We want a dance floor. We want quiet enough to talk. Every place I have suggested that fits the criteria - seems to get shot down because people in town would need to drive. Well, excuse me - I drive about 20 minutes each way to come to the place that is closing. It's worth it to me. I don't sit around and complain. If you want to go to live music/dance/hang out with friends, please excuse if it isn't in your backyard, anymore. Either it will be worth the drive to you, or it won't. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Then I found out the dance studio I have been taking burlesque classes at may not be around indefinitely, either. That is a shame, but I do see several ways that the boss may be hurting herself. I don't feel comfortable mentioning it to her, since it is "her thing" and she likely has reasons for running things like she does. She also produces dance/burlesque themed shows in this area and a lot of her social media posts seem to have been somewhat scolding people for not coming to her studio/not coming to her shows. She says she understands if people can't make it for various reasons. But in those cases the people who can't make it should be promoting her shows/classes in social media. Excuse me? Because she choose to put on a show that I can't afford tickets to it is now my job to promote it for her? I think not. Is it my job to promote everyone's business then? Eat at Rick's! Buy your hardware at Hardware Hank! I make jewelry and yet she hasn't gone out of her way to promote my sideline on her social media. I do not have a lot of spare money - just because jewelry isn't my main income doesn't mean that it doesn't sincerely help. I do respect her for promoting the art and putting on shows -- but I don't like this new attitude. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh course those two items pale in comparison to what's going on at home. Normally I'm fairly guarded about this but... whatever. I'm not in a mood to guard my speech at the moment. My parents have been having health troubles. My kind, sweet, nice, loving and gentle mom deals with bladder infections over and over. And the fact that her cea (blood number related to cancer) keeps going up. I'm fabulously worried about this. She isn't. My dad has many mental health issues and this isn't helped by his uncontrolled chronic pain. As such, he on occasion treats my mom like garbage. The poor woman is dealing with her own health issues and not only receives no help from him, has to deal with being yelled at and called names as she waits on him hand and foot. And then other times he is nice(r). I help as I can, but all that does - is mean that Im there too. And frankly this hasn't been great for either my physical health or my mental anxiety. Well I thought I saw a hint of a silver lining in that they were finally going to get some home health care. And now - there is some issue with that going through, too. I will try and remain hopeful. But it's hard though. It seems like help for us is hard to come by. He is a hard to handle person, he gets angry easily, he rants and raves and threatens and as such no one wants to deal with him so what do they do? Dump him off on us at him. Where we can do what? Nothing, other than be receptacles for either his anger or his depression. If someone has a mental disorder - it turns out it is very possible for them to ruin the lives of their so called "loved ones". Anyway My Lot. Thanks for reading if you made it all the way through this rant. I'll try to be more positive soon.