Song Challenge #4 - Beautiful Pain by Andy Black

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Todays quest was A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget. I am sure there is a BVB song that reminds me someone, but I rather not taint any Black Veil Brides song with some toxic person. I don't want to do that with an Andy Black song but..this has a reason behind it. (also for people how have not looked at my last challenge posts, I am using only Black Veil Brides and Andy Black songs to make it more of a challenge. Also, Andy Black is Andy Biersack who is the lead vocalist of Black Veil Brides. Okay? Okay) So...this song...it is such a beautiful song. It is all about having that breakup happen after everything you have been through but honestly it is probably one of the best feelings in your life even though it hurts so much. This is very much that song for me. The twisted part of it is... This song was playing when I was going through my break up. Some of you might remember, I was in a relationship a few years ago, we were together for 2 years and we even moved to Wyoming together to have a start to our lives. Things did not go very well, as you can tell that I am in Arizona and I also have no boyfriend. I was scared to leave home, but I was 20 years old at the time and wanted to progress my life just like all my friends were doing. It was stupid, I wasn't ready and I shouldn't have done it, but I guess it was good that I did because it taught me so much. First off...if you ever have doubts about someone...DON'T DATE THEM Secondly, don't force yourself to stick around someone. I wanted to leave so much sooner than I did living with this person. We lived in Wyoming for 5 months and I wanted to leave after 2. I stuck around because I was hoping things might get better but they didn't. I was finally at my breaking point and while he was at work I devised a plan to get home from Wyoming. As soon as he got off work and as he walked through the door I said to him...I want to go home. And when I said those words, this song came on the music station I was listening to. It is crazy how little things work like that. I had hardly any money and I had no car. I asked my dad for help and he said no. My grandma even though she was less than a day trip away she said no. But my mother, my saving grace, my angel, called up her boyfriend at the time and they drove all the way from Peoria, Arizona to Laramie, Wyoming to pick me up and take me home. It was a scary drive home, I thought we were going to die a few times because there were terrible arguments that happened on that drive, but I made it home. It was painful to admit that I failed in this relationship, failed at being an adult and taking care of myself, but it was so beautlful to feel that I no longer had to be with this toxic person. So yeah... this song is still very hard to listen to without thinking of that painful time.