I’VE BEEN FEELING SO LOW

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It’s like I’m surrounded by these thoughts and getting drowned into a bottomless ocean. I felt like I haven’t been useful. What was the purpose of studying all those year when I ended up sitting at home. Other nasty thoughts kept on making me feel so bad about myself. My hubby noticed something odd about me but I refused to admit the truth. I kept saying I’m okay. Then last night my hubby said “You know I’m your husband. Whenever you are not okay I just know it. You haven’t been yourself lately. What’s making you so sad these days?” Then I told him the thoughts. His respond really touched me and brought me back to a cheerful person. He said:- “Although you’ve fail your form 5 and didn’t get a certificate, you have been helping out someone who’s been to the university so many times. Your knowledge is being helpful to others. Isn’t all those years of education worth it? It might not be helping you but it is helping someone else. About your mother...Well you’ve been a good daughter. You’ve helped her in time she needed you the most. You’ve always supported her. She is the who ditched you not you. God noticed this behavior of hers towards you multiply and kept on blessing her by having you in her life. When God saw it’s too much, God revealed her real face. God knew you’ll never leave your mother even thou she treats you bad and will always come back for her that’s why God made her ask you to leave. And that’s also why God made her ask you not to call her cause she doesn’t wanna talk to you. And that’s also why God made her slam the door on your face when you have visited her. God wanted to protect you from her evilness. He knew your mother was abusing on you for your kindness. He knew you were too good for her and she has to be taught a lesson. That’s why God made her do these things. And for our home...well God is helping us by providing us with daily food and even thou we don’t have a home yet, we do have a shelter. And guess what we have clean clothes to wear. So you see we have all the things we need to live. Be happy God has protected you from the wickedness of your mother. Be happy we have all the basic needs we need.” Talking does help. I never thought it that way. I’m glad to hear these words. Don’t let Satan tricks you into saddest. So be happy cause you have helped and will be helping a university student who now is a teacher even though you’ve never been to university.