Have you ever suffered from being too nice to everyone?

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I used to. Quite a lot. I spent two years getting incessantly bullied by my roommate (who also happened to be in my class). This female gaslighted me into believing there's something wrong with me. Subtly masking her dislike for my personality in her snarky comments, she used to criticize me day in and day out. Never having met such a bitter person till then, and my self-confidence already teetering on the edge due to some trying circumstances at that time, I suffered a lot of damage at her hands. I used to cry for days, had no sense of self-worth and easily believed her when she pointed out problems in my habits and behavior. I used to think, why does she act like this when I'm so nice to her? What have I done which makes our interactions so unpleasant? Never did it strike my mind to just change the room and stop talking to her. Or even ask her to cut the crap and stay away from me. I kept taking it because I believed I deserved it. I thought it's my destiny. I thank her for that time though. Dealing with her gave me the most important lesson in my adult life. She made me understand that expecting someone to be nice, just because you are nice to them is the least effective way to deal with people and survive in this world. You can't put a price tag on your niceness. You can't expect the people around you to treat you well just because you are a good person. It doesn't work like that. If you are nice, it's for your own peace of mind. If you are kind, you have to do it with the awareness that the other person might not reciprocate in the same way. Depending on their circumstances, they may even push you away or hurt you. It took a lot of time and emotional support to repair the damage to my self-esteem in those years. I like the person that I am now. I have made peace with my flaws. And I've also understood, that if I stop being nice because of what I have faced (in those four years and later in life), I am giving power to other people to change me. Why should I do that? Am I not strong enough to defend my ideals? I haven't stopped being nice. But now, if the other person doesn't treat me with the respect I deserve, I cut them out of my life. Without baggage or regrets. I can't change the other person, but that doesn't mean I have to keep them in my life. I also make it a rule to help others with zero expectations. I never ask them to help me back just because I helped them this one time. It makes life so much easier and peaceful. I don't need to count or remember my good deeds. Being nice is a choice. It shouldn't become a burden. It should make you happy. Not full of regrets.