Missing These Life-Moments, I Never Lose (quote) The Dream (unquote)

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I get kind of angry that I'll never experience ... things (old-fashioned dating (asking out the girl, driving to pick her up, the whole 'courting (mostly courting her, but kinda 'impressing her family')), leading to the 'wedding,' etc. (things that people count as 'growing up')). Most of the blame gets placed on my Traumatic Brain-Injury; and I understand that, but I place most of the blame on [b]other people[/u]. (Although you might see 'why' I often put it in the 'second-person' like The Who do in this song: "... and I Blame You!") And I do blame yo-- ... others, because I'm not able to be where these things "happen" unless people going there take me there. The TBI makes me 'unpredictable' (and not in a good way ... where most people would get together 'to unwind from work and to have fun as they relax,' people would never know "why I was there" and that not-knowing is too stressful for anyone to put themselves through). And 'not going through that with people,' I don't "grow up." (Which is where 'the father of one of my fellow TBI-survivors' got off telling ME to go away "while the grown-ups talk" ... even though I was a twenty-something at the time) And so that's a way I can kinda 'get back at' people who post things on Facebook about 'events they're experiencing' (marriage-proposals, weddings, etc.)---I can 'comment' (probably in a PM, so I'm not "stealing the happy spotlight) that I pity them, since they're never going to get to experience 'their anticipation' again ... anticipation I have in infinite supply (Oh, they'll get to experience 'their friends & children (& grandchildren?) experiencing 'the anticipation'; but it's never going to be 'the same' again)