Our Momma’s First Birthday Without Her.

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Happy Birthday to my beautiful Momma in Heaven. Her first with Daddy in 8yrs. Her first with her parents in many, many years. Our first of many without her. We didn’t do much out of the ordinary today. I wore a dog tag necklace given to me by my best friend’s older sister. It has a picture of my parents on the front, and the back says “Your wings were ready, but my heart was not.” My brother-in-law and niece bought brownie bites, as my Momma loved brownies (store-bought or homemade). We all made posts on social media. I’m doing okay in general, all things considered. I think it’s because I’ve been a little busy today, which is better than stewing all day (basically, sitting around doing nothing). But honestly, I’m still trying to wrap my head around the fact that she’s gone. Losing both of my parents affected me, and I miss them both so much, but it’s just a different situation with my Mom. We took care of her for the last few months of her life, and we thought she was getting better. From being a stay-at-home Mom to working in the same school my younger sister and I attended, to still living together as adults, my Mom was ALWAYS AROUND. We watched WWE, Blue Bloods and Big Brother together. She was the first person I saw on birthdays, holidays, etc., and now that’s not going to happen anymore. So yeah, it’s still a lot for my brain to process, and sometimes my brain has to randomly remind me that she’s gone. It’s so weird without her here. But there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of her and Daddy. Happy 71st Birthday, Momma. I love you to the moon and back, and I miss you so much. Rest well always. Photo Credit: It’s my picture.