My brain be weird

Peoria, Arizona
August 17, 2022 4:13pm CST
I need to get better at updating my life, but yeah, a lot has been happening especially in the health area for, especially the mental health area. I started seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist, I had my first appointment with the psychiatrist on Monday and she was basically just asking me the questions that are needed to see if I am really experiencing anxiety, depression, and all that other stuff. It was actually nice to talk to someone who actually believed me. Because I feel like a lot of the time when I talk about my mental health, it seems hyperbolize, and I have literally had mental health professionals tell me that I am making everything up or that there was no way a person could go through so much and yet still laugh about it. As if...they don't realize that laughter is a defensive tactic to keep from hurting, but okay. So, the psychiatrist confirmed the anxiety and depression and prescribed me medication and then she also confirmed that yes, yes I do indeed have PTSD It is something I kinda already figured I did have, but ptsd is such a heavy topic for people, and it is always something I didn't think was a good idea to say I have without being diagnosed, but heeeyy guess what! I do indeed have it! It is actually a good for the clarity, I have been having so much clarity lately, that all these things that didn't make sense or that people never believed before, are actually getting confirmed, that I am actually not my problem. Next Monday I see the psychologist and I already predict I am going to cry a lot, which is a good thing. I haven't been looking forward to talking about my past and trauma because I am very much a person that when I talk about my past, I relive everything and it is hard, but I hope this person is a good fit and she is reassuring. Because I think all I really need is reassurance that I am not the crazy one and I need some kind of emotional support So yeah! That is me, I start my medication tomorrow, I'm kinda nervous but really curious as to how I will react. So I shall see how that goes and keep you posted I hope you are doing well!
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@Deepizzaguy (71797)
• Lake Charles, Louisiana
17 Aug
I enjoyed my day by going to have my eye exam and going to get bifocals given to me to improve my sight when I am working on the computer to see the small numbers and letters when I am working.
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
I am not looking forward to the day when I need bifocals, hopefully I never have to have them, they just seem so confusing haha
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@Deepizzaguy (71797)
• Lake Charles, Louisiana
19 Aug
@DesirousDreamer And to top it off in a few years I may need surgery for removal of cataracts.
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
@Deepizzaguy It isn't as bad as it seems, my grandma, stepmom, and a couple other people I have known have had to get cataract surgery done and they came out fine. My grandma's only complaint was the fact that she couldn't rub her eyes for a while, which is painful when you have allergies haha
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@RebeccasFarm (74106)
• United States
18 Aug
Good you are getting proper care now.
• United States
19 Aug
@DesirousDreamer Whoo hoo haha
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• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
Whoo!
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@RasmaSandra (58029)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
17 Aug
Best of luck to you and I hope the medication helps, I will put you in my prayers that all goes well,
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
Thank you haha
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@CarolDM (192755)
• United States
17 Aug
Sorry you have PTSD. Not fun to deal with at all. Good luck with your meds. Try not to be nervous.
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
It is one of those things where I always knew, but having it be confirmed kinda helps me know that at least my feelings are valid. I like how people tell me not to be nervous, but the whole point of the medication is for anxiety haha
@Beestring (5900)
• Hong Kong
18 Aug
Medication and counselling do help. So don't be nervous.
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
I am just nervous because I have heard some bad stories when it comes to medications. Negative reviews are always more alarming than positive ones being uplifting haha
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@Beestring (5900)
• Hong Kong
19 Aug
17 Aug
Dont be nerveous just be who you are, Hoping your medication goes well and you have a great day
• Peoria, Arizona
19 Aug
The part I am nervous for other than just having general anxiety about everything, is that theree are stories out there of people basically having their personality changing and I don't want to change my personality, I don't want to lose my creativity, since that is my entire essence. So it is a completely valid reason to be nervous. Besides, I have anxiety, I am nervous about everything haha