My brain be weird

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I need to get better at updating my life, but yeah, a lot has been happening especially in the health area for, especially the mental health area. I started seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist, I had my first appointment with the psychiatrist on Monday and she was basically just asking me the questions that are needed to see if I am really experiencing anxiety, depression, and all that other stuff. It was actually nice to talk to someone who actually believed me. Because I feel like a lot of the time when I talk about my mental health, it seems hyperbolize, and I have literally had mental health professionals tell me that I am making everything up or that there was no way a person could go through so much and yet still laugh about it. As if...they don't realize that laughter is a defensive tactic to keep from hurting, but okay. So, the psychiatrist confirmed the anxiety and depression and prescribed me medication and then she also confirmed that yes, yes I do indeed have PTSD It is something I kinda already figured I did have, but ptsd is such a heavy topic for people, and it is always something I didn't think was a good idea to say I have without being diagnosed, but heeeyy guess what! I do indeed have it! It is actually a good for the clarity, I have been having so much clarity lately, that all these things that didn't make sense or that people never believed before, are actually getting confirmed, that I am actually not my problem. Next Monday I see the psychologist and I already predict I am going to cry a lot, which is a good thing. I haven't been looking forward to talking about my past and trauma because I am very much a person that when I talk about my past, I relive everything and it is hard, but I hope this person is a good fit and she is reassuring. Because I think all I really need is reassurance that I am not the crazy one and I need some kind of emotional support So yeah! That is me, I start my medication tomorrow, I'm kinda nervous but really curious as to how I will react. So I shall see how that goes and keep you posted I hope you are doing well!