This Is How I Battle Sadness, Depression, Darkness When It Threatens My Peace of Mind

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This Is How I Battle Sadness, Depression, Darkness When It Threatens My Peace of Mind ... by Gloria Faye Brown Bates ... October 29, 2010 Shootout in Henderson, NC ... a bullet hit an innocent woman. The man had scratchy fingers ... he was touching a child in an inappropriate way. It appears to be an isolated incident. The bystander is still receiving treatment. Some students walked out of class. They need to start making progress on real issues. UNC tested water for chemicals. Internship discovered high lead ... Cape Fear Valley Memorial is seeing 150 patients today. Health officials urge parents to take their children to their doctors to avoid lengthy wait times. This will be the worst flu season in 13 years. Halloween ... do the the children treat or treat tonight? I don't know. You are hearing patchy news just as I did while writing it ... trying to listen at the same time to the news on tv. It is 6:30 am. I have been up for about an hour. I have mopped, vacuumed ... fluffed pillows, made sure all is neat ... when daylight comes ... it will find a cheerful, colorful, clean house. The first thing I did when I got up ... I turned on Xmas Lights For Skip! That is his happy, beautiful Christmas tree he wished for. I turned on the water fountain with its 3 beautiful, lighted mosaic pots ... colorful, blinking Xmas lights, the sound of water trickling down from pot to pot. This is my morning so far. Skip is still asleep. Miss Camie, our 9 year old Pup, has just come into the living room. I know what she wants ... she is ready to eat her chicken. I always cook chicken ahead ... separate it from the bones, place portions in baggies ... then, place into one big freezer bag in the freezer. This way when we have appointments, and every morning ... I can simply take her meal out of the freezer, warm it on low in the microwave. Chicken isn't the only food she eats. Sometimes, I give her other things when we eat vegetables, and other meats. She has her dry food ... it sits in her dry food dispenser. She can go eat it when she wants to. This is how my morning has begun. I wonder what do you do when you first get up? Very Important Note : I don't want you to think my life is perfect at all. You are seeing reflections, colors of a woman who tries to make all negative in her life good as possible. Each day I strive to make all better, I try not to fall into the trap of depression, feel sad, dwell on anything that tries to hurt my Heart. I most of the time succeed because I AM Not letting negative rule, determine my life ... nor Skip's and Camie's life. I take good care of us ... even when times aren't the best. When I don't succeed, I make sure all is good with Skip, retire to the bedroom until I feel better. There ... I will play on my tablet, watch the news, sit ... meditate. I dream of the good things I want in our lives to happen ... happy, good things I want to do for Skip, Camie now, in the future. I dream of a million things ... I never lost my ability to dream because anything is possible. I choose good over bad ... each day I get up knowing in my Heart good things are going to happen just any moment. I also, wake up with gratitude, thankfulness in my Heart. Even when not so good happens ... good counteracts it making all bittersweet. Many flavors, colors are my Life. I smile, I wouldn't have it any other way. Who wants to live in a world without colors? I have this wonderful feeling inside ... something extra special is going to happen today ... I am going to embrace it with my being ... we all love ... something good to happen in our life! One More Note: I always make sure my house is clean (we live in an older mobile home ... I clean just as I was living in a million dollar home ... sparkling, smells so good! This is important to Me ... all has to be clean, neat as possible ... colorful, cheerful ...lights ... this is what keeps sadness, depression, anything negative away. If negative so happens anyway ... I can look around, think ... I'm so glad my house is clean! I can think clearly! This is how I battle with keeping sadness, depression, darkness away in my Life. No, I don't succeed every time ... sometimes, I lose my battle. That's when I just lay down for a time to rest my mind, soul, get up ... try again. This is ME ... Gloria.