Life is a Song, Sing it.

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In the natural order of things, life throws us in the threshold of ‘should I’/ shouldn’t I’? In the quagmire of all that goes within, we sometimes lose the trajectory we were taking, through mindfulness, practice and meditation. It is better to pause, breathe and let go. That empowers the moment. That gives us clarity. I felt like blocking a person the other day for being so nagging and insensitive. Then I thought, she feels good telling things to me (which many a times don’t make sense) and insists I listen. But if I comment or speak my mind taking the thread of the topic she was speaking on, she cuts me off with some excuse. I haven’t blocked her, but take her call, only occasionally. I have decided to lock the garden gate (earlier we used to latch it, so that people might access the doorbell) as many of our neighbors advised us to. This is because, in our absence, anyone could enter and damage the plants, steal the flowers and the vegetables otherwise. The other day when someone came up, I being at home, could have gone out but decided not to. I told him to go as we didn’t require his services. Though I felt I could have at least taken his phone number and felt bad about it, it didn’t matter later, when I thought it over. I have been waiting for a friend to visit us during the vacations this year. She promised to, and even checked the flight tickets. Then she informed that her mother being unwell, she wouldn’t be able to make it. Later, I happened to see her DP on WhatsApp. She had visited a place somewhere during that time when she was supposed to visit me. She had mentioned that they were intending to go to Vietnam but the journey would be costly. I do not know till date where she went, because I didn’t feel like calling. I have reasons. Last year my sister and I had embarked on a journey to a hill station in the North, because she promised she’d come to meet me there as they were holidaying at her brother’s place a few hours away from where we had booked our homestay. And she never came. She had issues, though genuine ones. Of course, she has her own freedom. But when she didn’t respond to a birthday wish I penned, I felt rather uneasy. It felt deliberate. She has always been warm and eager to receive me if I happened to be at her hometown for work. She is a mother of two and is extremely busy. I sometimes understand, sometimes don’t. Despite her busy schedule, she took to visiting her friend, who was leaving for Ireland, some two thousand kilometers away from her home. I have not disengaged myself with anyone. I only take solace in the thought that only God can be one’s true friend. Sometimes I question myself, why get affected at all, when we are here for a limited time? It’s better to focus on oneself and let life play freely through us. Pic Courtesy: PixaBay