Don't Touch My Things!!!

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My anxiety today has reached an all time high. I woke up early to hit the grocery store because the house was in desperate need of it and early in the morning especially on a Saturday I know would be the best time. There are much less people out and about in the early mornings most days except Sundays. I left the kids at home with their stepdad while I got groceries done cause it is just faster on my own. It all was going just fine up until i lined up to pay. There was a couple who lined up behind me in line a couple minutes after me. My cart was full so I was trying to get it all on the belt as quickly as I could. As I am putting my things up the woman ends up grabbing my groceries and putting them on the belt without even asking if I'd like her help. I am not the type of person who likes to be in public places with many people and prefer not to socialize if I can avoid it especially while running errands. I just like to do what I have to do without bothering anyone or anyone bothering me. Well her grabbing my things without permission bothered me A LOT. I don't like people crossing boundaries on me and this felt disrespectful to me because it felt like she was trying to rush me to get me out of the way. I told her to stop and not touch my things because I really don't like it when strangers touch my things. I placed the cart ahead of me and stood behind it as i finished putting my things up. As I am finishing up I see the couple put the 2 gallons of milk they had, they only had the 2 gallons nothing else, on the belt and just let it move up until I had no space for the last of my things. Mind you I was at the register there was no more space for me to move up. The woman like the milk was also moving closer and closer to me from behind with me having no space to move until I finished handing the cashier the last of my things to scan and pay. At this point I pay and get out shaking from my anxiety shooting up from the encounter trying not to overreact but also get across that what they did upset me. As I am walking to my car an older man offers to help me to my car with my things and I politely said no thank you, I've got it and walked on. the man then proceeds to FOLLOW ME to my car anyway and that triggered something reactive in me. I snapped and yelled at him to stop following me when i already said I didn't want help! I yelled at him to back the f up before I really go off. I was overwhelmed. overstimulated, and incredibly anxious as I ran out of my anxiety medication so I couldn't regulate my system as I usually do before starting my days. I ended up putting my groceries all in the car and calling my mom to tell her what happened. That led to a mini anxiety attack in the car and I sat and cried for a little before getting a grip and going home. It took a few hours and a refill on my meds to finally bring me back down and regulate my nervous system. Once home my partner saw me shaken up and asked about what happened at the store. I told him and he comforted me and reassured me everything was alright. He also apologized for not coming with me but he works late so I really just wanted to let him rest and get this done on my own. It made for a terrible morning really. Am I wrong for feeling like these people today crossed way over the line? Were my responses over the top? I just do not trust anyone right away and prefer to let everyone be and everyone let me be. That lady was not respecting any of my boundaries or personal space. How has your day been so far? Hoping better than mine.