my bond with my son

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I just got done doing a Telehealth appointment with my son. He has had a lot going on mentally, and we've had all kinds of appointments with therapists and different places that help with mental health in our community. He's doing a lot better now that he's on medication, but it's definitely something we are cautious about. While on talking to this particular therapist, they asked my son about his relationship with me, and I was a little curious about how he viewed it too, because while I always feel like we have had a close bond, I was curious as to what he would say about it. He told the therapist we were good (his word) and that he enjoyed spending time with me and felt we were a lot like friends sometimes. He ultimately knows I'm his mom first, and that will always take priority, which is why he does have friendships with kids his age, but I was still happy to know that he feels that close to me. I never would have said my mom was my friend growing up, and I wouldn't now. I love my mom, and I'm somewhat close to her, but not the way my son and I are. My mom is not someone I can go to for anything or talk to about everything with, and I'm happy I can offer that support to my son. My goal was to always let my son know I'm here if he needs me and to support him while also giving him boundaries. I have no clue if I'm parenting right half of the time, but I'm happy to know he feels safe with me and that he can trust me and seems to genuinely enjoy being around me. There are so many different kinds of parenting, and most people are trying to do their best and have no clue if they're doing it right, but I think as long as your kid loves and trusts you, you have to be doing something right. I know some people are more strict, some people are less strict, and then some of us are in between. I've always tried to be more in between. My son has rules and boundaries; he knows if he does something he shouldn't, he'll be in trouble, but he also knows I'll always be there when he needs me. We joke around, play board games, and watch movies. He actually does enjoy spending time with me. Sometimes, he'll come into the room I'm in and just sit and stare at me until I acknowledge his presence, and he'll either chat me up or he'll ask to watch a movie. I almost always put whatever I'm doing down to spend time with him, because I feel like presence is important, especially in their teen years. It was interesting talking about our dynamic and about learning about how he sees me, and seeing how comfortable he was with my presence. He is himself with me almost 100 percent of the time. He may not tell me everything, but he doesn't feel the need to make himself be happy when he isn't or be less weird or crazy when I'm present. He'll dance around and sing and do all of those weird, wonderful things that make him who he is, that he won't do around just anyone when he's in a room with me. When your kid gets to be their weird, wonderful selves around you, that means they feel safe. Growing up, I didn't have the relationship with my parents that I have with my son. My parents were wonderful, and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but there are definitely times I wish I had had the relationship with them that I do with my son. I am not naive enough to believe there aren't things he talks about with his friends that he doesn't talk about with me, but that's normal and healthy, and teens especially should have different relationships with their friends than they have with their parents, but a child should always feel comfortable talking to their parents. My son is much closer to me than he is to his dad, but he knows his dad loves him, and they do have things they like to do together without me, mainly fishing. I love when they get to spend time without me. My son and I spend time together all the time without my husband, but I love that they can do things without me sometimes and bond that way.