started writing again

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For 15 years, I've been living in my head and it brought me nothing but pain. The overthinking I do on a daily basis is enough to give me anxiety and unnecessary stress. Yesterday, I decided to stop. How? by writing again. Not writing for money, as a career, or what. I've written my first journal entry after 15 years of not doing it. And it was so liberating. I realized that I have been carrying too much thoughts in my head for no particular reason and it is giving me unnecessary stress. yesterday, that all stopped. I was able to enjoy the day without thinking too much but just being in the moment. It's such an eye opener. When I was younger, I thought journaling was just taking account of everyday and a place to keep my secrets and thoughts in - all along I was actually keeping parts of myself that are mine - all mine. And the power it holds in my wellbeing. I stopped because I thought it was silly for a 30 something years old to be keeping a diary - what will I write anyway, my life was uneventful anyway. But 15 years later, here I am, writing again. Bring back that ritual that has kept me sane and alive. I never knew how much I would be needing it back. I thought that part of me was over only to find out that it has lovingly reclaimed me back. For the first time in 15 years, I was able to put my thought down, my frustrations, my regrets, my discontent, anything that I have in my head, I wrote them all down. And there's much more clarity after - I smiled and laughed and had fun the entire day despite the fact that it was just an ordinary day. And I am forever thankful that I, once again, am reunited with an old friend. To be able to breath again and relax just because.