black or white?

I like black and I like gothic culture in each side of it.

I'm only a month pregnant, and I've been cramping the whole time. They sent me for an ultrasound last week, and told me in 3-5 days I would know if anything is wrong. I tried to think positive, but then I started bleeding yesterday. I called the doctor first thing this morning, and they tell me I can get in to see the doctor tomorrow. I'm thinking, I can't wait until TOMORROW! what if something's WRONG? I tell the lady okay, and hang up. I tell some girls at my office what's going on and they say, aw, no You need to get in there TODAY! I call the office back, and the lady says now that she sees that I had the ultrasound, and she'll look me up in the system to see if the results are in. After spelling my entire name out about 5 times, the lady tells me I'm not in there yet. GRRAAW!! Ok, I say, so can I call the hospital and see if they can rush this along? She says, no, that shouldn't do anything, there's no point. (Heh, obviously she has no idea what my insides are doing at this point) I call anyway. They say that I'm in the system, That they have my results. Oh, yeah, and they can't tell me what they are, they can only tell the doctor. What the hell?? This is MY BODY, but they can only tell someone else what's going on with it. Nice. So I call my doctor's office back, and tell them that I AM in the system, please call the hospital, they will tell u the results. Why does the lady ask me for my name and try to look me up again? I'm trying to be patient, I really am all this time. I just ask her to please call the hospital, she says she'll call me right back. I figure after an hour, she should know something, right? I call the doctor's office back, and get on the phone with the nurse. Oh, yes, I have the results, she says. Ok...so you were going to call me WHEN? Maybe she couldn't tell that I was dying to know if everything was ok. I'll give her the benifit of the doubt. Anyways, after all that, the baby was only 4 weeks, so its too small to see if anything is wrong with him*. *Wishful thinking, I feel like its a boy* I have to make another appointment for two weeks from now, to have another ultrasound, and I'm a wreck! This is my first pregnancy, and after all I have been through with the people around me, I will die if this baby doesn't come. The people around me, that's an entirely differnt story...... Any comments?

My fav colour has to be blue ... but then i Love the "black"Goth look as well!!! Black nail polish and the works ... reminds me of Marilyn Manson!! Love that Dude!!!

black... i ware black, i listen black... i live black