Who is First love?

I've loved lot of girls in my life. But all 100% failure. They also started loving. Then went away in another door.

Actually the father of my daughter is my first boyfriend but he is not my first love. When I was in high school I had a suitor that I also like but I wasn't really the kind of having boyfriend so I just ignored him until I find myself liking him and maybe had loved him but it was too late, the same old story of two lovers but the difference is that we never had the second chance to start all over again. There are times that I still remember him and think what if we just had the chance, stuff like that but maybe that is God's own will because i believe that you'll always have what is really for you. Though I know that it was my fault why I we never had the chance to be together, but that is life, and that is the past we can't do anything anymore but to face and accept it.

i just loved once in my life and it failed because of me only, and after that i never loved again not even myself, and i dont think that it will ever happen again

well even in my case my fitst love did not succeed. i have seen this thing only in movies where in 99% cases first love succeeds. lol. but i feel there is nothing hard and fast rules. and reason of its failure could be too much expectations from the first love and not much experience in dealing with such a senstive relation.