My Pseudo (Virtual) Boyfriend
January 28, 2007 10:39pm CST
Every time I receive a message coming from an an anonynous texter, I coudn't help but to have nostalgia with my past relationship with my so-called pseudo-boyfriend. For you to understand me better please let me elaborate. I met a guy on a cellphone. He used to call himself as Loyalman.I almost forgot how we started knowing each other. All I can remember is that he characterizes himself as a college boy. His age is 22. He is the eldest son in their family. He is a working student. He comes from a poor family. He used to send sweet picture messages & inspirational quotes everyday. He used to call me Babes. I really got affected. I must admit, I fell in love with him. The feeling is getting real.I am starting to like him.I had a strange feeling that urges me to text him also. That feeling becomes a stunning stub of need that needs to be satisfied. I began textng him everyday until every minute. My day is not complete without a message in my inbox coming from him. I started missing him. Suddenly, he gets dull. He seldom sends me pictures and messages. He suddenly gets cold. I don't know what happened to him. I ask for his explanation. He woudn't reply. I demand for his attention. I keep on texting him everyday, every hour, every minute. He got irritated. He...he turns off his phone. I can't understand him. I began forgetting him since then. I never dare texting him again. One day, without expecting, he texted. He stated, "Hi Babes! How are you??...I'm going to play basketball with my friends..." I replied,"If you'll never take me seriously, mind yourself!" Hay, he did not respond again. I felt left out. I am so lonely. I begin to have insecurities and fears. I feel pathetic. I pity myself. Before, I do not let anyone(not even to my closest friends) know that I got into this kind of virtual relationship. I'm afraid but now I am letting it out in the open. I hope someday someone will text me again. Someone who will take me seriously. Someone who will make the virtual REAL...
29 Jan 07
I think he's not worth your attention. The fact that he has left you out is already a sign that he's not that much serious about you. Having a relationship just through text is anything but mediocre. You cannot hold into something tangible with that. Everything is like a stage play. Where everyone could be anything and anyone they wanted to be. Relationship is built from trust. And it is very seldom that you get it from just being textmates. Maybe the problem is you've taken it too seriously. And when he felt that you've taken it too seriously, he wanted just to bail out. Because he felt that it's too much for him. He never really wanted for you to be so muched attached to him. Maybe he already got a girlfriend and just needed someone to keep him busy besides her. Well, what do you expect? They're men, and that's how most men thinks and acts. But don't fret, that's the best thing about failure & disappointment... You get important lessons from them that will make you stronger and smarter in life.