I have a really ad habit of trying to establish trust in my relationships!

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I usually early on in a relationship to show that I am a woman of my word and that I am trustworthy I will make an agreement or pact with the guy wherein at my expense and in which I must come through with my end of the bargain before they have to start on their end of it. I have yet, in 12 years of doing this, to come out even or even just "shortchanged"by a little. Usually they will rather than upholding their end of the deal will come up with excuses, loopholes, and most often than not, utter B.S. and then they will come up with some alternative to the origional deal to sop my ego and my ire. Well my fiancee has done it to me yet again. I have not ever broken my word to him in one of our 'bargains', he on the other hand has failed to deliver on his end of even one! This time it may have cost me the 970 dollars that I won last week at an online casino. I asked him to loan me the money to use a public fax to fax my id verification documents. We get all the way down to the store, and he lets me go through completing all the paperwork and then tells me, oh I left my wallet at home I don't have $26 dollars on me. He then wouldn't go back when we got home, he just wanted to take the documents and fax them from his new job the following day. I was furious. I reminded him that this was not his money that I was spending to assure that the documents were faxed in a timely fashion and he continuously argued that It "is his money." The following morning I left the documents on the counter for him to take to work and fax, as I knew he would he conveiniently forgot! I have been broke since the first week in December and I really need the money, but does that matter to him, no! He just wants to keep me under his thumb,locked up in the house with no money so that I cannot go anywhere or do anything. The documents I tried to fax using my old tempermental fax machine that I had in the garage for two years and they didn't go through I found out today. I am not sure what my timeframe is, but from the fact that they have locked my casino account and have not contacted me about my money I assume I may have lost my money! And he is still trying to convince me that he is right and that he didn't see the point in spending $26 to fax the documents where I know that they would have been sent rather than trusting his lying phoney a$$ yet again with anything important and of monetary value for me. The darned point was because I had asked him to loan me the money and he had agreed. The only reason that he wants to take them and fax them from work is so that his nosy butt can peruse my documents to see what transactions I have made at the casino. So he's screwed me again and still argues that he is right and that I am wrong not to trust him when he has proved time and time again that he will hamstring me financially to keep me locked up in this effing house! Should I just dump him and move on if the money is actually lost?