**Do you like who you are????**

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I'd like to say "yes", but... I dont believe it would be completely true. I already realized this though, at the end of last year. I came to the realization that I have pretty much "lagged" a little too long. I've been out of school for 12 yrs...Wow!! See, that makes me sick to hear. Anyway, its been 12 yrs and all I have to show for that time is the birth of 2 children. DONT GET ME WRONG!!! I dont want it to sound the way it must. I love my children dearly, and Thank God for them and for their health. We could always look at it that way, if it werent for them- Id have NOTHING to show, right? Anyway, I will be 30 at the end of this year and I am reflecting on my life and my choices and I just feel very disappointed in myself. I'm not the type to sit and mope and hope for my savior to come save me, so, I have already taken steps to begin working to fulfill the dreams and goals I had put on the back burner. But the funny thing is how simple it was for me to figure this all out. I mean, I thought about it as New Years struck, but the details came to light when I was "just fooling around", putting my profile on a dating site. It requires you to list your interests, languages spoken, yrs of school completed, your career goals, income, etc... And I just dont have anything that really stands out and grabs your attention. I finished school at home as a teen mother. I didnt finish college. I dont know any other language. I've never been anywhere else in the world. I just have who I am INSIDE, but is that enough??? My family and friends have always pressed the point- "You are so beautiful Corin. You can have anything you want. Dont worry, some rich guy is going to find you and take care of you." ..WHAT???!!! I never understood that. And I know even more-so now, thats all fairy- tale crap. None-the-less, at 30 yrs old, I sit with only my morals, my good heart, and looks that will certainly fail me eventually..."What are you seeing when you take that long look in the mirror?"