So Depressed!!!!

@joodzki6 (596)
February 13, 2007 11:46pm CST
sometimes in our lives..we really become hopeless due to so many problems that seems can't be solved. There are moments that we want to just disappear in order to escape from difficulties...sometimes we feel that it's the end of the world and that no one will be there for you...but do you agree on "God won't give us trial that we can't get over with"? i have been fighting for life for quite sometimes..i mean i've been dealing with so much problems, but no one seems to know. My friends thought of me as a strong being, that i can surpass everything that come my way. But inside me, i'm not that strong, there are times that i really wanted to give up...disappear. i can't tell them that i'm feeling this way because some of them are getting their courage from me...they look at me as their inspiration in fighting for life. It's really hard on my part...i wanted to be myself but how? i don't want to disappoint them. i really don't know how to deal with it anymore. now, the effect is no longer making any good to me...most of the time, i was sitting alone on my desk and not uttering a single word. I'm more focus on my job,so i could not think of anything at all...some of them are asking why i suddenly changed?...and i can't answer them...i don't think its healthy..but what am i suppose to do????? please enlighten me with this. Thank you.
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@budsr03 (2351)
• Canada
14 Feb 07
"Wow" it seems you have a lot of weight on your shoulders. Who put it there? Do you think you could get rid of it? Allow your friends to know about this weight, real friends will support you and they won't think less of you. Please also get some professional help. I did and i don't have as many bad days anymore. Take care Joodzki6.
@joodzki6 (596)
• Philippines
23 Feb 07
Thank you for the concern...actually, i really how it's just happened. but i know and i believe that i'll get over everything...this is part of living..and growing as well. thanks again!
@gabs8513 (48710)
• United Kingdom
11 Apr 07
Everybody gets that way I do I have been fighting all my Life for everything including for a Marriage that never happened, then I had to fight him to leave me alone and stop threatening me and causing a lot of attacks which could have killed me There is a lot of things I have had to fight for and I am hoping that now at the age of nearly 46 I am aloud to settle down a bit. I will always be fighting my Illness for as long as I live and the way it has changed my Life but that is Life as long as I am now finished fighting for my right to live peacefully Never give up the fight no matter what you always get there in the end Sweet
@Zamboni (160)
• Canada
14 Feb 07
i know exaclty how you feel.and people who have never been depressed can truly understand.i would recommend seeing a doctor.i know its embarassing but they dont see it as that.alot in my life is crap right about now and theres nothing positive in it.i agree when oyu say youd like to just disapear.just yesterday i felt like hiding int he closet and being left alone.theres nothing on my mind.but being alone and to just sit is a gettaway.i always say i need a vacation but financially cant afford it.just always remember...the dark cloud will pass.sometimes it just takes time and sometimes it seem to take for ever.mine appears at least a few times a year.your not alone and theres millions who understand what your saying.youll see in the next little while with the responses.take care