Anxiety disorder or just plain trauma?
@kleinchik0104 (57)
Philippines
February 19, 2007 7:25pm CST
my husband and friends tell me that I worry a lot. I don't really worry about petty stuff, my worries and fears start to happen when I'm inside a public vehicle and when I see suspicious people then I would feel this sudden and strong heart beat. Sept. 2005, the bus that I was riding on my way to work was high jacked by 3 men. They got my 2 weeks old celphone and some cash and the rest of the passengers' belongings. Aside from that they were cursing and shouting and even harassed us girls by touching our body parts while pointing their knife at us. It was a 20 minute horor and I thought that was the end of my life. Ever since whenever I ride the bus I always look around to see if there are suspicious looking individuals and if I see someone who would give me the creeps I'd go down immediately. I don't ride buses with curtains or other public vehicles that have small windows. I thought at first it was just trauma... but as days go by my fear increases. Now I even think that there might be someone who will blow up the bus or the building that I'm working at. Sometimes at night, I check the locks 4 times coz I'm scared that someone will massacre us. When inside a private vehicle I don't like the ride when it's in a dark area bcoz I feel like someone's gonna highjack us as well. I'm pregnant right now and I'm kinda scared that it would affect my baby. I am even afraid to have a baby girl because I'm scared that what happened to me might happen to her or maybe at a young age someone will rape her... it feels like my imagination is getting worse day by day and all these gory stuff are eating me slowly. Is this already anxiety disorder or just because of my traumatic experience?
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@mcaf1970 (140)
• Philippines
20 Feb 07
i have checked the medical dictionary & i think your case is considered as a traumatic experience. & better consult a psychologist. what you are feeling now is not good for the baby. don't think of negatives. how will your baby be brave when he grows up, the fact that he/she still in your womb & you feel so scared? be brave girl. pray to God for his guidance before riding a public vehicle. the psychology will help you to overcome this fear.
@kleinchik0104 (57)
• Philippines
20 Feb 07
well whenever i ride a bus i always pray the rosary. for me that's the only weapon i can use against these people. it works for me... but i really think i also nedd medical help to get over this.
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@JulieSkyRock (401)
• Canada
20 Feb 07
Hum... This is a good question. I sometimes have anxiety. But t's never get really bad. I sometimes get nervous, people just piss me off... When anxiety gain you, there's nothing much you can do if you didn't receive medication from you doctor. Just take a breath.
@payingforschool (678)
• Canada
21 Feb 07
What you are describing sounds a lot like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This would make sense given the horrible experience you had. I don't think it will go awway on it's own, it will just get worse with time. I think a good therapist is what you need - anyone who hadbeen trhoguh what you went throguh would need it, too. I hope you get some help through this, and don't feel ashamed to ask for it.
