My dad only has 3-4 months to live

Canada
March 16, 2007 3:15am CST
Sorry If This Is Kind Of Long My dad was rushed to the hospital on sunday afternoon. & this morning my sister came by & told me that he only has about 3 to 4 months left to live. He has had lung cancer for almost a year now & he refused to go to the hospital & get treatments, he didnt believe that he had cancer. He is very stubborn. Now one of his lungs is completely dead and the other one is infested in tumors. He doesnt know that i know that he only has so much time to live. & everybody is telling me not to say anything about it until he decides to tell me, that is "IF" he tells me. I went to see him today at the hospital & I didnt know what to say. Whenever i walked in the room he looked so happy and then he started crying whenever we hugged. My dad does not live with me but he's usually here everyday. My dad and I are very close at heart but we barely ever have anything to talk about. When i was younger we'd talk all the time and we'd do everything together, but whenever we moved down here and i got older, i wouldnt say we grew apart we just never sit down and have a long conversation. We sit at the table together or on the couch and it's always just slient. the other night at the hospital my sister said he was calling out my name and that he wanted to see me. She also told me that whenever he used to go visit her i'm all hed ever talk about how he's so proud of me and that i am like his gold. I want to talk to him about a lot of things before he's gone but i dont know what or how, He is 76 years old and I'm 16 years old. but i dont want to go through the rest of my life regretting not talking to him while i had the chance. my mother and everybody's worried about me because my dad is my whole world i dont know what i am going to do without him. there is just so much he's gonna miss. my highschool graduation is at the end of june and he always wanted to see me graduate. he's always saying "You go to school, get your diploma, then when your older you can do daddy's taxes and all of his paperwork for him." that always made me laugh. He could always make me laugh no matter what. He's always making jokes, even now while he is in the hospital. I just want to make the best out of these last couple months that i have with him. and show him that i love him and i'll never forget about him. His voice is like a whisper now and it's not supposed to get any better. if any of you have went through this, what did you do or what would you suggest i do to make this less painful. and if you have any suggestions of what i can talk to him about or what we can do to get closer before he is gone. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read this, your responses would mean so much to me.
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@Jemina (5779)
16 Mar 07
I'm sorry to hear that. But nevertheless you should be thankful that you got a chance to make it up with your dad. Some of us had our fathers taken away when we were still young and we didn't get to enjoy paternal love. It might be painful for you but you will get over it just as I did. Just do your best to make the most with your dad's remaining days and I'm sure you'll not regret it because you have something nice to recall when the time comes.